I woke up monday to my mom just a ballin her head off. It turned out that I was bein accused of molestin some kids, but the worse part of it is that it was the same story as last time. My niece was tellin it at her school and it got turned into the CPS. They haven't came and charged me with anything yet and there is no proof of anything happenin. I ain't that type of person. Anyone that has been around me can tell ya that. It hurts down deep inside of ya when ya get accused of that type of thing. I was so fucked up from it I had reached to get my gun and blow my head off. I stopped because 3 faces popped into my head. They were my girlfriend Heather and my parents. I dont want to put them through something that bad. Heather has said that if I die before her then she will kill herself just to kick my ass. Ya know what, I believe she would do it too. I am sorry if any of this offends ya'll, but I had to write it down. I just aint all healed yet. Heather and my parents are all that's keepin me alive right now. If it weren't fer them then some of ya would never know what ever became of me. Ya'll would just think I quit carin about everyone. If ya'll ever stop hearin from me then that means I have died.
I was accused of molestin two of my nieces in 2002 and als a step niece was included in that. The step-niece and her mom is the ones that said it that time. It never went to the law so there was never any proof. All 3 girls are almost grown now. The youngest one just turned 16 this month. I just dont know what to do. I am totaly lost. If anyone has any advice then please write and tell me. I will listen to anything that is said.
