Jasmine's blog: "About me..."

I decided to scrap the about me bit from my public profile. If anyone really did want to know the real ME then they would actually bother looking in here than just perving on my pics. About me: To be honest I don't even know where to start, so this may end up going off on a little tangent everynow and then but I will try my utmost to get back on to the subject. Well at the moment I am studying in college....if you want to know what I'm studying, just ask. I'm not listing them as I did before...it kinda looks like I'm implying 'loookey here I do all these smarty pants subjects so I iz a clever girl'. About me personally...I would describe myself as a traditional girl with modern day thoughts. I like the romance and tradition of the time before. I know a lot of people here on the fu (mummers) don't believe that marriages can last forever. To me...at 18 I've yet to experience a 'relationship' yet. However when I do meet someone that I really seriously like and have a future with, I'd like that to last forever. 'The One' is someone I've always dreamed about meeting first. Call me naive and idealistic and whatever, but that in this time and at this moment is how I feel. As for my personality...some people may call me spoilt/spoilt brat. It is true that I am very used to getting my own way and what I want. But the majority of that time I work for for what I have, be it material things or just the attention of another. To me that is being spoilt in the way that I have been given the chance to achieve what I have. And Ok there are times where I really am just being given what I want without any of the work....*grins sheepishly* My character...I hate people who judge me by my age. I crave attention and will sometimes turn into an almighty brat to achieve it, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. I try not to do this too often, but sometimes it just can't be helped...and I suppose this is where some people will refer to my age as judgement. But overall I think I am generally quite mature and easy to interact with. As *someone* will know, I do have issues with over achieving and self validation. That, is something I don't see changing anytime soon. I over achieve, probably to eliminate that feeling of always being 2nd best. So far in my life I see that I have always been 2nd best, where it be in school, with other people, with my parents....whatever, you get the picture. The times that people tell me 'you are perfect'....trust me I am definitely not, if you have read the above then you will know the issues that I have within myself that causes the over achieving in everything I do and the attention seeking. Hmmm this felt more like a long rant more than anything else...but will keep updating the more of the 'self' that I discover. P.s This me me me me me essay is kinda narcissistic huh? Also I realise I contradict myself a lot....but it's 4.41am and I can't be bothered to explain.