Death looms over all.........sometimes it is closer than anyone really thinks.......whether it is the fact that I have no meds to take or whatever the case......Right now it feels like death is calling my name and waiting on me to do something.....presents me with a unique situation...I can give in to my non medicated side and doing something which would probably be the single biggest mistake in my life......or I can do what the other side tells me....I can look Death in the eye and tell him to skull fawk himself with his scythe.......Personally I think that I am going to go with telling Death to Fawk himself and call my Dr tomorrow . I am having a hard time keeping up with myself and my own personal life.........I can deal with other ppls problems better than my own.....god knows why but it is the way I work for some reason......well I think I have come to realize that maybe I need to deal with this one before it gets any worse.....writing this is helping me feel a little better...but it is not the cure all for me.......I guess bottling up everything inside me probably doesn't help either, but hey I am only Human