How is it you can care for someone and can't stand to be around them. My ex called she was stranded and needed a ride home from work. I couldn't leave her to walk home at 1am. So I went to pick her up. I was expecting her to start another argument so I was prepared to bite my tounge.
I saw her and I can't lie when I say my heart jumped in my chest, but from there it was all downhill. I tried making small talk and she said she had a headache, so I turned the radio down.
At that point utter revulsion set in. I realized I still care for her, maybe even love her, but her presence disgusts me. I ask is this normal or is that me just being bitter towards her.
It should have been a pleasant ride but I was felt like vomiting whever I looked her direction. I feel guilty for thinking that way of someone just five weeks ago I was planning on making my wife. Am I a bad person?
