Misti sat alone in her room on her bed staring out the window watching life pass by. Kids were riding bikes and parents were busy mowing lawns. It seemed all in the neighborhood was alive but for her. Sighing heavily she went to the computer sitting by her bed and sat staring blankly at the screen.
Opening up the internet and looking at her friends list on aim she looked for someone to talk to though she knew there was no point in looking because there was no one she wanted to talk to no one that would set her free from this feeling. She'd simply end up saying hi and then not talking anymore after that which was always what happened. Next she began to go to websites checking online profiles and her email though she had done this just half an hour ago before sitting at the window. Soon as she went to one site and logged in she'd leave and go to another logging in to find that there was nothing new to see. For hours this routine was bound to happen opening and closing the same sites over and over just to find no one was there to talk to her, no one cared atleast not enough to make her care.
Going to her email she decided to look through the junk folder just to waste time and came across one of many porn adds that were so often recieved. Opening it she decided to go to the site just to block out the feeling of nothingness and give her some sort of occupation for the moment. It was the same as all the other sides with pictures of girls mindlessly blowing and screwing guys they didn't care about and an offer to try the site free for a week if you became a member. Whenever she clicked on an image in hopes it would be a video it simply led her to the sign up section. Ofcourse it was pointless and she would accomplish nothing but it was better then doing nothing atleast.
So leaving the site she went to her favorite search engine and started to do a video search. Typing in goth in hopes of finding some pretty people to watch she simply found ditzy looking blondes which the description claimed was a slutty gothic whore that'll do anything. Scrolling through further she found more short clips and finally came across one of a girl with spiked hair and a dog collar giving a guy a blow job so she went to the site and watched but it kept skipping with low quality and only lasted 15 seconds. How pathetic she can't even find decent porn to occupy her mind with the only thing that passes the time is the search for it because the watching doesn't take long. "Owell," she thought not like I have anything better to be doing.
Watching some clips of a girl fucking a dog and then giving it oral she began to reach her hand under her skirt and touch herself more out of feeling she was supposed to then actually wanted to. Her fingers slid into her tightness and it kind of hurt because she wasn't actually turned on, but she forced her fingers in and out intell her body finally gave in creating moisture to ease the friction. Using her left hand to try and keep herself stimulated she kept searching through the random clips intell an hr had passed. Finally her body reached an orgasm if it was strong enough to be called that though it sent no waves of pleasure that could penetrate the loneliness she still felt and she went back to the bed laying down.
It was 8 at night so she decided it was late enough to attempt to sleep which more meant laying there in tell it was about four in the morning before finally falling asleep. Tomorrow was a school day and she'd have to face the world again. It was almost worse then rotting away in this small room that she lived in hiding from her parents and the rest of the world. Perhaps it was worse because atleast here she can ignore her emotions and pretend she has no feelings. Atleast here she can rot her mind with meaningless porn and become stagnant so that her pain doesn't seep through making her miss the one she's lost.
Laying under the sheets she held a pillow close trying to pretend it was someone who loved her but finding she now had difficulty even feeling in love. Something she had always done so well was to obsess because even if she were alone it gave her some feeling of purpose some meaning and even a little happiness. Obsessing gave her a reason to live but now nothing came. Her thoughts even of her ex Robby meant nothing. It simply faded away and left her mind blank as she tossed and turned the night away.
Shutting off her alarm clock when it reached 7:05 the next morning she lay in bed wondering what the point of getting up was. Finally she regrettably dragged herself out of bed because she had to pee and only had 10 minutes in tell the bus would come. Going to the bathroom she then found some clothes lying on the floor where she piled all her clean clothes and put on the first thing she saw which happened to be simple black jeans and a black tank top. Next she put on a plain black sweater and ran her hands through her hair. Now she didn't even bother to put make up on or even comb her hair because it seemed not to matter anyways.
School seemed to go by as ussual with her looking towards the ground and zoning off into outerspace. Not zoning off into thoughts and day dreaming but into a black hole of nothingness finding herself dwelling in side the void that was deeply a part of her now. In the halls she passed her ex but didn't even look at him it must have been the first time that it didn't make her heart pound. Perhaps that was a good thing that she was now getting over him but it only made her emptyness more because she didn't even have her thoughts of him to keep her alive. Somehow she managed to pretend to be alive and happy in class but that seemed to drain whatever she had left inside of her.
That day a girl named Lydia approached her in the halls and started talking to her. Misti shared a biology class with this girl but they had never spoken before so it seemed odd that they would now. Lydia asked what she was up to after school and wanted to know if Misti wanted to go to her house for a slumber party. What seemed the most odd thing was that Lydia was a preppy looking blonde girl with a somewhat high pitched voice and Misti was known as one of the school's only "goths."
Declining Misti thanked Lydia for the offer but told her she didn't like social events. Lydia was very persistant though and kept begging in tell Misti finally gave in. The party was to be friday night and if Misti wanted she could stay the whole weekend if she found that she had fun though Misti assured her that she was sure she'd not be staying for more then friday night.
After the encounter with Lydia the day went by as normal and the rest of the week seemed to slowly drag on in tell the day of the party. She continued her routine of sitting around in her room trying to kill her mind and emotions though there were always occasions when she would break down crying begging for someone to love her. It seemed she no longer cared who it was of if she loved them as long as there was somewhere there to hold her and protect her against the cold nights. "Love doesn't even matter anymore" she whispered to herself "Just fuck me in tell I can't feel anymore. Fuck me in tell the pain goes away and my emotions die so I can become meaningless," she spoke to herself.
On the day of the party Misti took a shower after school and put on some make up wearing a black skirt and a black and red tie up shirt. Since she never did anything she decided she could use this as an excuse to pretend she cares about the way she looks so she put on some eye liner and paled her face just a little. Give the preppy people something to amuse them was her plan. Let them be scared by the crazy quiet goth girl who wants to die. Maybe then she won't be begged to stay for the whole weekend since she was already being forced to be around people for an entire night as it is by someone she doesn't even know or like.
When she rang the doorbell at the house which Lydia said the party was at her heart leaped out of her chest when she saw that Robby was there with his girlfriend. Welcoming her in Lydia introduced her to some people and showed her where the alcohol was though Misti told her that she didn't drink. Glancing at Robby he caught her eye then turned away and kissed Kateland who he had ended up dating not even a week after leaving her. "What a slutty bastard," she thought.
Sitting on the couch Misti simply zoned out and watched Invader Zim on the television. It was a nice two story house that well furnished and it appeared that the inhabitants had some money. Most of the guests were downstairs in Lydia's room playing spin the bottle, and only a few remained on the main floor to drink beer and watch tv.
Getting up to search for a bathroom Misti looked through the open doors to see which was the right one and in one room she saw Robby and Kateland making out on a bed. Perhaps she should have just continued walking and found the bathroom but instead she stopped and looked through the door watching them. Robby's hand were rubbing Kateland's leg as they kissed and he started to feel her crotch through the fabric of her pants. With out warning Misti found herself rubbing herself through her own jeans though she knew she should be disgusted and hurt.
Coming up behind her Lydia asked what Misti was doing and the couple in the room looked over realing for the first time she was standing there watching. "I was just looking for the bathroom," she told Lydia and proceeded to walk off.
"It's the last door on the right," Lydia called after her.
In the bathroom Misti couldn't help but think of what she had seen and kept feeling guilty that it had made her hot. Right as she was wiping herself and getting ready to pull her pants back up the door opened and Lydia walked in. "I saw you watching them," she told her "I can tell it turned you on and you wanted to join."
"No it didn't I was just hurt to see it and what are you doing in here?" she replied holding back the fear and anxiety of being caught.
"It turned me on too and I want you." Lydia said as she started to walk closer as Misti still sat on the toilet holding the wad of paper in her hand.
"Here let me help you," Lydia took the toilet paper and started to rub Misti cleaning her off "That's better, but I think you need to be cleaned up a bit more."
What could she say? Misti was completely shocked and unable to more or respond so she simply sat there feeling vulnerable with her heart racing and her pussy beginning to pulse with anticipation as Lydia got on her knees. "Spread your legs a little more," Lydia instructed her as she moved apart her thighs with her hands.
Lydia started to lick up Misti's inner thigh and then began to play with her clit sucking on it and making circles with her tongue. The heat was overwelming and the sensations surged through her body at the feeling of her sex being teased. Moisture was forming and unable to control herself Misti began to moan putting her hands in Lydia's long hair helping hold it back from her face. She couldn't stand it the tongue digging deeper into her as she began to thrust her hips faster and harder pressing against Lydia begging her deeper. It was so overwelming and she began to shake back and forth climaxing over and over the tongue still deep inside of her as her juices flowed freely over Lydia's tongue.
At this moment the door opened again and Robby stood there with his eyes wide in shock. "Oh hello Robby," Lydia smiled at him "I was just helping Misti get cleaned up we should be done shortly in less you care to help me."
Getting up Lydia started to walk towards Robby but Misti pounced off the seat in rage and pinned him to the ground with her pants still around her ankles. She proceeded to rip of his clothes as he fought to get up and make sense of what was happening."It's your fault for leaving me and making me see you in that room," she practically yelled at him "Now fuck me and let me have you and show your stupid girlfriend just how much you love her." Going right for his pants she unbuttoned them and begin to kiss his penis caressing it and bringing it to hardness. Taking him in her mouth she began to violently suck his penis moving her lips as fast as her rage could take her. Then once he was good and hard she got on top of him and forced him inside of her as she ripped his shirt apart dragging her nails through his flesh while she pounded her pussy against him bringing him deep inside of her. "Fuck me you asshole. Take me like you were willing to take her. You caused this pain so you make it go away." She pulled him up so they were both in a sitting pushing her pussy still attatched to him and bit hard into his neck causing him to scream out in pain.
"Robby what the fuck are you doing?" Kateland began to scream "You bastard get the hell away from her?"
Standing up Misti pulled her pants all the way off then walked to Kateland glaring then grabbing her by the hair she dragged her over to Robby who was now standing now. "Suck his cock bitch!" She forced her head down and grabbed her jaw forcing it upon as she held her ex's penis in the other hand shoving into her mouth. Using her hand she forced her on him faster and faster in tell she was brought to tears then she moved her away and threw her on the ground. Pinning her to the ground Misti started to pull Kateland's clothes off and shoved her fingers in her unmercifully shoving her own sex right in Kateland's face who started to lick her and bite her thigh.
Starting to be over taken by the emotions flowing from his ex Robby turned to Lydia no longer caring and started to kiss her passionately. They fell to the ground and proceeded to fuck his penis moving in and out of her at a fast pace intell they were both moaning wildly in ecstasy. Reaching a climax Robby got up and pulled Misti off of Kateland "What the fuck is wrong with you?" he grabbed her by the head and forced it down to his dripping penis rubbing it all over her face as she began to try and lick it. Taking his limp penis in her mouth she sucked off all of his juices and bit down blood beginning to fill her mouth. Robby screamed out in pain but she got up and threw him against the wall holding him by the throat with strength she didn't know she had. "For your torment you will die and this is the last time you'll ever fuck me so enjoy it."
Horror struck the other two girls just stood there watched as Misti held him there reaching her other hand down forcing it on his bleeding penis yelling at him to get hard and finish it. Letting go she got to her knees licking up the blood and forcing him against protests to his arrousal fucking him with her mouth in tell he came down her throat his hot liquid filling her as she let some of it spill onto his cock and swallowed the rest. Throwing him now to the floor she pushed his spent penis inside of her riding him in tell he grew hard again inside her and proceeded to fuck him orgasming again and again.
Next she dragged the three into the room and tied them to eachother with some rope she found laying around and then she went to the kitchen and found a knife. Holding it to Robby's throat she slit it and then held Kateland's eyes open forcing her to watch. For the rest of the night she continued to force the two girls to do as she pleased making them fuck her with there tongues and fingers over and over again and then proceeding to do the same to them. She locked the door so no one else at the party would disturb them for this and it would be days before anyone became suspicious.
When it was finally discovered what she had done she still remained in the room now all three laying dead as the cops approached her. Grabbing the gun from one of the cops she forced it into her pussy and screamed "Fuck me till I'm dead," then she fired the gun though but it didn't kill her. In a craze she pulled it out and placed it to her heart firing one last shot which would end her life.
