GinaBell's blog: "missing my momma"

Gone by Gina Goodwin 9/10/2007 Where did you go? won't you please tell me.. I really need to know. I can't handle this life it's become such a mess i want so much more, but ended up with much less. did you leave on purpose? did i push you away wont you please forgive me... why can't you just stay? everyone always goes away no one gives me time time to say I'm sorry, that I was out of line. My whole life, I lived for you. I did everything you wanted.... I see you when my eyes are closed You left my life haunted. I will never stop missing you, or wishing you were here. Losing you always was and always will be my only fear. I love you Momma

mom...thinking of you 9-4-2007 by gina goodwin do you really think it's fair? the way you went away? do you think it gets easier living day by day? well i doesn't get any easier no way, not by far.... i spend many days just thinking about you wondering how you are. it kills me that i had to tell you it was ok for you to die... because in all reality, it was a big fucking lie. and oh the tears i shed when i realized that i had forgot the sound of your voice it really fucking killed me, why didn't i have a choice? i would give anything in this world, even my own life, just to hear you say you love me, and kiss me goodnight. i will never be the same again, things will never be right. you were everything to me. why did you go so soon? i think of you everyday and night you're the sun the stars and the moon. i love you momma, and that will never go away. i will love you always and forever until MY dying day.