I'm feeling fairly confused lately. For the first time in a long time I can read anyone but my own Tarot cards. I don't know if it's because I'm mentally blocking something without realizing it or if I'm subconcsiously so afraid to know the truth to my own questions.
I know that there is only so much I can control in my life. I've got a majority of it under wraps, but there are some things that I find myself wondering about. I know where I am in a personal sense. I know how to handle myself in a business sense. But I am so lost as to where I am or what I should be doing at a romantic stance.
There are three basic levels in each persons life. Personal, Business, and Love. I've only got two of the three in check and it's throwing my whole balance off. I don't know here I stand in one situation and I'm being put in other situations that I'm not sure I want to be in. To put it simply, I work in Sales and I get hit on constantly by creeps, dirty old men, handicaps, and playboys. I'd like to tell them to back off because "I have a boyfriend" but I don't know if I do.
I know it seems trivial and believe me I wish it were. But this is keeping me up at night. More specifically it gets me up at 4AM. haha (inside joke). I just wish I knew where we stood for each other. Unfortunately I don't think he even knows... or at least doesn't think he can make that decision yet.
