haywoodgiblomi's blog: " Mine"

Does love ever die? Don't know if it does but I know for me it never does. As those of you know that actually read the about me part of a profile I state that I am divorced. But that isn't true as of yet. Right now I am going through a divorce and when I created my profile I had given up on things. But now that time has progressed I have felt that strong desire to hold on and fight. I don't know if that is the thing to do but I can't seem to help myself. It has been such a painful experience that it is hard not to give up. I had to fight for my daughter, so that I could just see her. Her mother felt that she could walk away from me with her and I wouldn't say a thing. Well boy was she wrong. I ended up having to take her to court. Things weren't perfect in our marriage but they weren't bad by any sense. We didn't fight, hardly ever. But maybe that was the problem. But no point in stressing over that. I don't want to give up, want to fight for us. Not just for my heart but for Gabby. She is so important to me, more than I ever realized. I don't want her to have to go through this. She is already suffering with some of this but has been such a trooper. But I can see the separation had made an impact on her. But I know that my love will never die, so I guess I will be miserable for the rest of my life. Everyone says that things will get better, get easier but I doubt that. Every time I talk to Gabby I am reminded of her mother. Plus I have to deal with her mother a lot. It might be different if there wasn't a child between us.

Swiped this from someone else just thought that it was funny and oh so true. Dear Alcohol.... First and foremost, let me tell you that I'm a huge fan of yours. As my friend, you always seem to be there when needed. The perfect post-work cocktail, a beer at the game, and you're even around at the holidays (hidden inside chocolates as you warm us when we're stuck in the midst of endless family gatherings). However, lately I've been wondering about your intentions. While I want to believe that you have my best interests at heart, I feel that your influence has led to some unwise consequences: 1. Phone Calls and text messages: While I agree with you that communication is important, I question the suggestion that any conversation after 2 a.m. can have much substance or necessity. Why would you make me call my ex's? Especially when I know, for a fact, they DO NOT want to hear from me during the day, let alone all hours of the night. 2. Eating: Now, you know I love a good meal. But, why do you suggest that I eat a taco with chili sauce along with a big Italian meatball and some stale chips (washed down with wine & topped off with a Kit Kat AFTER a few cheese curls & chili cheese fries)? I'm an eclectic eater but, I think you went too far this time. 3. Clumsiness: Unless you're subtly trying to tell me that I need to do more yoga to improve my balance, I see NO need to hammer this issue home by causing me to fall down. It's completely unnecessary, and the black & blue marks that appear on my body mysteriously the next day are beyond me. Similarly, it should never take me more than 45 seconds to get the front door key into the lock. 4. Furthermore: The hangovers have GOT to stop! This is getting ridiculous. I know a little penance for our previous evening's debauchery may be in order. But, the 3 p.m. hangover immobility is completely unacceptable. My entire day is shot. I ask that if the proper precautions are taken (water, vitamin B, bread products, aspirin) prior to going to sleep/passing out (face down on the kitchen floor with a bag of popcorn or wherever). The hangover should be minimal and in no way interfere with my daily activities. Alcohol, I have enjoyed our friendship for some years now and would like to ensure that we remain on good terms. You've been the invoker of great stories, the provocation for much laughter, and the needed companion when I just don't know what to do with the extra money in my pockets. In order to continue this friendship, I ask that you carefully review my grievances above and address them immediately. I will look for an answer no later than Friday 3 p.m. (pre happy hour) on your possible solutions. And hopefully we can continue this fruitful partnership. Thank you, Your Biggest Fan P.S. Please take a moment or two and note the following items below that I think may be of some interest to you. THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Innovative 2. Preliminary 3. Proliferation 4. Cinnamon THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Specificity 2. British Constitution 3. Passive-Aggressive Disorder THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Thanks, but I don't want to have sex. 2. Nope, no more beer for me. 3. Sorry, but you're not really my type. 4. Good evening, officer. Isn't it lovely out tonight? 5. Oh, I couldn't. No one wants to hear me sing.