MidSaturn's blog: "Mid-Saturn Swings"

Some people are so sad they can't be alone with themselves. I don't get it! Do you dislike yourself so much that you can't be happy with u? I'm serious. I know people that honestly can't be alone for more then a few hours....if they had to be completely alone....no phone calls, no visits, NOTHING for a whole weekend...they would DIE! WHY????? If you can't be happy with you then what makes u think other people can be happy around you. If you have a constant need to have other to make you happy you drain them and they will feel drained when around you. We all have a life force....a aura and though you may not understand why u feel a certain way when your around certain people there IS a reason! You may want to pay attention to this feeling! Those that make you feel good and full of energy can be good for you and those that make you feel weak and tired....BAD! I have a friend who sucks energy from those around her....I have to be very careful when she is near. She makes me very weak! IF I LET HER! I have explained this to her and she knows about my beliefs and I have explained to her how this works and why she is the way she is. She admits that she is unhappy with herself and that she has VERY low self esteem. She does not mean to pull from others...this is something she does by accident but this makes her worse then others....worse because she does it 24/7 and without control because she does it without knowledge of doing it! Those that do it with knowledge can control it! Yes this is what is known as a Psychic Vampire in a way. She pulls from the energy field of others. Oh hell....Saturn has just freaked someone out...ha ha ha....touched a subject many are afraid of...........WITCHY WITCH! THATS RIGHT! Some things are real like it or not....doesn't matter if you believe in them or not! There out there......

YOU LAUGH BECAUSE I'M DIFF/I LAUGH BECAUSE YOUR NOT
FEEDINGTHEDESIRE I haven't posted anything here since I started this so I figured I would just come and see what pops out of my mouth (fingers)......WARNING...I ramble....LMAO! I HATE HUMANS...I think we covered that! It seems that every where I go I see another human that backs up my reasoning. I rarely meet anyone that's worth knowing.....how sad! People first come off so kind and considerate of others and at the first test they fail! WHY? Is it so hard to be selfless? And the children I see SCARE ME! I have teenagers talk to me in ways that make me want to KILL THEM! FOR REAL! I had a 15 year old that made me want to grab him and his buddies up by their little necks and choke the shit out of them.............lucky for them doc gives out good meds...ha ha ha! Worse the parents see no issue with this! What the hell? OK.....FUCK THAT! "yes I have a potty mouth....it's the brain....gotta come out some where ya know...LOL!" I wanna run away.......is that possible? I would love to find a place deep in the mountains where I would NEVER be found ..... a place where I could come out only when I chose and be visited by a "select" few and have my animals and silence! GOTTA HAVE THE NET TOO YA KNOW....LMAO! Nope....they'd find me! I know they would! Dear FU Friend...to the question...Can I handle Me? YES...I love me! I can't handle the wait of the world...took me forever to realize that one! I tried forever to be the rock for everyone around me and then one day I realized that I needed a rock to lean on.....OH SHIT....there wasn't one! I was the only rock in the open field! I was so screwed....hence the doctor! ha! Took a while to get it together BUT together I came and now I lean on me and play backup to all others....I had to learn to say "ENOUGH!" and "NO!" and finally "I Can't!". To some I'm a ball to others I'm as weird as they come....I don't care what others think and I speak my mind come hell or high water...I scare the shit out of people. At home or in a store! I only hold silent in another persons home out of pure respect! Put me in an open playing field and I'm no holds bar....I had to sugar coat....I was never big on sweets! LOL............I hate liars and thieves and I'll smack one down so fast their mothers head will spin. People that play others make me SICK....I've had so many of those come in and out of my life I could SCREAM....USERS, GAMERS, PLAYERS, call them what you will......."Don't hate the player hate the game!" WHAT THE FUCK EVER! Come here so I can kick your ass and we'll all feel better....well every one but you that is....hee hee! Back stabbers! There's a name for you....blood suckers. You feed on the inocent! You and others like you make the sweet bitter and the kind cruel. Once open and carrying to all I now shut all out thanks to your lessons! I've learned better safe then sorry........There are more people out there welling to use and hurt then give and love! The sadest part is that in the end you will end up with more the other way around and your dumb asses are to stupid to see that. In the end u end up alone, empty, and with nothing....and you blame everyone and everything except yourselves for it! FOOLS .... that's what you are! See....told you I ramble...and I'm hazardous to your health....LMAO! I get all worked up! LOL! My blogs turn to rant sessions.....sorry! H

Swings says it all........I have a mind like none you will ever come across again and that may be a good thing...for you, me and the rest of the world...LOLOLOLOLOL! I have swings from hell. One day I may rant, love, hate, confuse...there's no telling what will come out of me from one minute to the next. A lover and a fighter....did someone step on my toes? Wait and see....was I inspired or did I just have a quiet day? I may stay silent for a month or more and out of NO WHERE my head will EXPLODE !!!!!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGG !!!!!!!!! ha ha ! SWINGS !!!! I told ya....the name says it all! MID - Midnight....power that pulls at the earth...the oceans and all of us every month. Saturn - A beautiful and deadly planet full of mystery. ok....there you go.....you know where my name came from and the name of the blog came from. Now set back and wait to see if my head pops off or if I get inspired with love or something more profound....hmmmmmm.....what will it be? I wonder!