mia all up in yer face's blog: "Mia's VERY SECRET thoughts. heh."

I was born a depressed bastard with hand-me-down clothes and a mother that had to work three jobs to feed my sorry-ass brothers and my sorry-ass self. We stood in lines at churches and waited for free food. We had food stamps and WIC and all the embarrassing assistance I didn’t want my schoolmates to know about. I can only remember that in black & white. But even the future is based on grayscale. These days the existence (and persistence) of the lack of color in my life is pushing me to my limits and I realize that I want more. I want to learn the secrets of the trade: If you love me, I’ll love you. I want to find the fountain of youth: I’m only as young as I feel. I want to defeat the world: Vote NO on Proposition Suicide. I want to run through fields of daisies, roll around in tall grass and sit on a home-made porch-swing. I want to love my pets, grow my plants and have time enough to check my makeup before I leave the house. You know, all that marketing-fairy tale shit. Who says you have to be born a royal? Who says princesses can’t be made? This is a stick-up. Give me what I want. Make me a Queen.

Endless Possibilities - 07/26/04 Running after a boy Named after the Sun Reminds me of one -Maybe two- Of the ones I let get away And the ones I made stray Because I'm a bore Or Almost a whore Whatever they thought So unbelievably wrong Have made me become One of the strong One of the fearless One of the sad One of those girls That can't help but get mad When something goes wrong Something out of control Something that makes me crawl back Into my little black hole Where nothing can hurt me Where I've unbreakable walls And no one can hear me Scream Through the long Empty halls Interrupted by Silence My miserable friend That reminds me Over and over again Of the boys that I've lost Or the ones that I've gained Or the ones that I've pushed away Cause I'm lame But nevertheless I stand proud though I'm bruised I stand sharp and brand new No matter how I've been used Cause no one can conquer This strength behind frailty That holds up the mystery Of the endless Possibilities.