My names Damian everyone calls me "D".
Im hispanic/apachie indian "i barly found out im part indian"! Im pretty lost right now
Or maybe not lost but in limbo.im not going to tell you what i did but i will say i was just
Being a pussy. I dont know where im going or what will happen to me so im like this everyday is another day,
As in that sense i live in that day. My life is nothing i have nothing ,i dont want anything put to move on to whatever
Is next after death.i cant work cause im on meds i cant collect from being on meds i cant funtion do to the fact im on meds
Its like being ran down everyday no energy to get up or to do any kind of task,but they say i have to take them in order to
Get better.yeah right ...so i stopped and tried to get back everything i lost ,muscle streangth , power of thought, i thought i was. Doing pretty good then
A month or so goes by bam.....i break my back ,wow .i believe its due to the fct i was on those meds.but i cant prove it and the docs they telle what i need to hear
Not what i need to know.im ok now walking doing stuff able to do a push up yeah that was an amazing feeling of joy able to do a push up.so now im stuck in what next...my own therapy to cope with this madness was fighting zombies in xbox 360 i found some passion again for life in a fucking machine.so my time awake was smashing zombies.what a waste of time .ive worked sunce 18 ive done some maraculous stuff in my time and the women ive had the most pleasent and craziest bitches.and bot just a couple im mean alot very many and i loved everyone in there own way or matbe i just love pussy.but yeah.now i got nothing my social skills gone i hve no friends i have no lover i have nothing but fucking meds an a broken back.suicidal tendecies are so hi but the meds i forget and its fine.look im scaried
I dont know where i will be i cant stay like this but theres no possitive exit im dumber then ive never been im slower then never been.fuck im rambling.....
Do i go on meds again do i try to work well thats gonna be a minute cause im barly getting muscle again.been three months but im here but dont know whats next...
