Lauria the Vampiress's blog: "Men suck"

Hey, I keep telling myself you'll realize that you're not going to be happy where you're at either. I also sit here and wonder how you can sleep with HER when you say you still love me, but we've had that discussion already. I also don't know how much she knows. Does she know you say you still love me? Or have you neglected to tell her that? I'm not asking these things to get answers, I want you to think about them. I want you to think about how you're using her, and the mixed signals you send me. You have talked about how you'd like to be able to try again, yet you're with someone else. You can't get your feet underneath you to support yourself much less have a healthy relationship with someone else. I want us to be friends, but I have a lot of anger at what you chose to do to me. You've also made it very difficult for me to go do anything, every where I go I run into someone or see something that reminds me of us. The girls want us to go out, but I'm not ready to face her. While I know it takes two, I can't fully blame you for your cheating either. I don't know who made the first move, nor do I really care, but I can not see the piece of ass you got when you wouldn't even touch me. As I said, just words, take them as you like.

My letter to him this morning There are some things I need to say and if I don't say them now I never will. There were other options that could have happened with us before you cheated on me. You could have gone ahead and found a place of your own or even just told me you were going to rather then asking, even though I asked you to give this family more time. We moved too fast and stepping back and starting from an earlier point in a "relationship" was an option. I had not realized how much stress my family really was putting on you. I'm also still very hurt that all last week you flat would not talk to me, you told me it was work stuff or nothing, and all the time you were already planning on leaving me in pieces. I knew you meeting her was not a good thing for me, but I TRUSTED you, and that is something you will never get back from me. I will try and be a friend to you, but you know as well as I do that's not going to be an easy task. There's a part of me that even says "why not just try dating like normal people do?" but I know as long as you're living with her I will not be able to make that happen.

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Also a side note, my timeline in the previous post was a bit off. I met him in NC when I took my trip to Virginia earlier in the year. October is when he moved down here. ~~L

Ok so I don't blog much but I need to rant. Some of you have seen my "Love of my life and me" pics and know about my trip to NC in October where I met someone. That someone moved down here about 2 months ago to be with me and my family. Well I've come to the conclusion men suck. This last week has been hell with him, not talking to me, no telling me goodnight or anything and it all came to a head lastnight when he didn't come home. Come to find out today he met someone...surprize surprize. He hasn't touched me in weeks and yet he found the time to go out and get F*(%30 up and hook up with one of the lowlifes in town. They all do... He says my mother is holding me back, and he wants me to be happy and until I'm happy we can't be happy...what the F ever. He knew what he was getting into when he moved down here...