The Time Winding Down
Sitting here.....pondering thoughts and questions. Wondering what my purpose in your life is and if I meet your needs. I often feel as though I'm invisible to you and unappreciated for the things I do and say. Overhearing conversations that maybe I shouldn't listen in on and hearing you speak of another just rips through my heart like a knife with a dull blade. Slowly tearing me apart eventually leading to my death. How is it that just a simple word can make me smile or cause me so much pain, leaving me in tears and with so much heartache? Am I just an amusement for you? Someone you can play with and never worry about my feelings or thoughts? Can you honestly describe me in such detail as you do the others? Do you even really know who I am? Do you see the pain when you look into my eyes? Love.....A word I've heard many times, but what does it all mean if it's not from the heart? I hide behind my social mask and paint a pretty picture that is believable to the eye but if you really knew me...you wouldn't need me to tell you. Just to know you're thinking of me is enough to make me smile, but unfortunetly I know that's not the case. With this storm inside my head I have no answers to my questions and with the way things are going, I probably never will. Time is so precious, so why won't you take it to look deep inside of me? Maybe it's because I'm not of importance or that there is someone else who you would rather spend it on. I feel you disappearing like the moon with the coming of dawn. Memories......soon that's all that will be left of this thing I call my life.
