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I used to write alot of blogs. Not so much anymore. I guess after awhile you just feel like no one cares about what you have to say or not. Whether thats the truth or not,who knows? I tend to ramble out of my mind sometimes.... This hasnt been the best year for me,or for really anyone else i know. Anyways my year actually began in February. My oldest brother Matt who was a youth minister thought his wife was cheating on him,when in reality she wasnt. He came to the decision the only way to deal with this was to take his own life. So 2 days before my mothers birthday,my brother commited suicide. I felt like my world had come crashing down around me. I couldnt get out of bed for a week. I wasnt sure how i was supposed to go on. In fact the only thing that really kept me going was knowing i had to stay strong for my mom. The most important person in my life.
But as well all know,life has to go on. The human heart keeps beating,whether the pain stops or not. Well in late July my moms husband of 18 years started to get really sick. He kept coming down with pneumonia that wouldnt seem to go away. He went to the hospital and they told him and my mother they had to make the decesion to either place him in a nursin home or he had to go on hospice. Well my mom is a nurse so in my family putting him in a nursing home wasnt an option. So her and I did the only thing we felt we could. My mom quit her job and i took a leave of absense from work to bring Eddie home and to grant his last wish,which was to die at home. The greatest man i had ever known in my enitre life,who had raised me since my own dad died when i was 7,passed away August !st at 1am.
Never take those you love for granted,because you never know when they might not be there...... <3
