[Sigh.]
Why is it that two people can seemingly never part on amicable terms?
I knew what I wanted; what I needed. I knew what you were willing to give. They weren't the same.
I was never angry. I was frustrated, but I was never upset. All I wanted to do was talk. Discuss how I felt. For real. Without all the bullshit. I just wanted to hear how you REALLY felt.
But you cared more about the online drama, cared more about... whatever else was more important to you than giving me a chance to express my feelings without telling me that I was selfish.
And now you're gone. And you don't appear to care or miss me or even give a shit.
And I'm REALLY not sure what I'm trying to accomplish by posting here. I guess I'm just hurting at the moment.
Whatever. I was SO far off-base about us, I can't even believe it.
So now it's time to move on. Again.
I'm doing it, a little bit each day. But it's funny, the one thing you said keeps running through my mind...
I don't think I'll be the one that ultimately regrets throwing us away.
