Lauribug Fubar KNOWS drama's blog: "Meaningful--"

Life is a process of change. We grow, we develop; sometimes for better, sometimes for worse. Occasionally, we may not like what we see in others or even ourselves, so we are then faced with the opportunity to change and develop into a more pleasant and proactive individual. Occasionally, we may become something we never imagined--this can be good or bad. Things are not always black and white. There are gray areas that fill the spaces in between what we perceive to be right or wrong. These shades of gray can show us something we may have missed before..or maybe even something that's missing. People change. It is an inevitible part of life. There are times that friends betray you and it is during these times you are presented an assortment of decisions to make. The important thing to bear in mind whilst attempting to arrive at a decision that is right for you is, sometimes, in these gray areas, we must distance ourselves from those who would be a detriment to our growth and development. Sadly, there are those who would see you fail and want nothing more than to hold you back. I was drowning and now I am finally able to breathe. I am finally able to live.

People who are bored with nothing to do find themselves reflecting on their own personal flaws and imperfections and turn in desperation to some type of comfort. In this instance, it is projection. This occurs when people take something they don't like about themselves or something that they have done wrong and project it onto another person: "Look--look LOOK! Over there! They're doing this! oooh! I mean, I am, too, but look at them!!!" It is a convenient way to avoid admitting that you. hate. yourself. But, I'll tell you now that if you choose--and, yes, it is a choice--not to love yourself, then you can not love anybody else. Period. Another thing worth noting is that at night, when you lie awake waiting for sleep, you are left with nothing to think about but what you've done to either help or harm your fellow man. It is absolutely wrong to take out your personal disgust with yourself on other people. Deal with your own problems, and just leave the other people alone. If you can't or won't help someone else, don't make the situation worse by bringing them down any further. There comes a time when we all have to grow up. Why not make it today?

Woman killed in Lawrence County crash Wednesday, September 24, 2008 By Daniel Malloy, Pittsburgh Post-Gazette A woman was killed when the car in which she was riding pulled out into the path of a tractor-trailer in Lawrence County last night. Northwest Regional Police Chief James Morris said Whitney Jo Maguire, 21, of Ambridge, died in the crash shortly before 7 p.m. at Routes 551 and 422 near Edinburg. The driver of the car, Shawn Geisinger, 22, of Tarentum, and Ms. Maguire's 2-year-old son were taken to a hospital for treatment. The truck driver, Daniel J. Hill, 33, of Brackenridge, was not injured. The crash closed Route 422 for five hours. First published on September 24, 2008 at 12:25 pm http://www.pittsburghpostgazette.com/pg/08268/914646-100.stm Kept In Corsets - Fu-owned by SexySavior & Pedro El Loco, Fu-owner of KatieMae @ fubar

I'm sorry that i bought you roses to tell you that i like you I'm sorry That I was raised with respect not to sleep with you when you were drunk I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy" I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not an asshole I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club I'm sorry I would rather make love to you then just f**k you like some random guy. I'm sorry That I am always the one you need to talk to, but never good enough to date I'm sorry That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car, but when we went out you went home with another guy I'm sorry That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere, but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend I'm sorry If I start not being there, and being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new asshole comes around I'm sorry If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work I'm sorry that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along. I'm sorry If you read this and know somebody like this but don't care But most of all I'm sorry For not being sorry anymore I'm sorry That you can't accept me for who I am I'm sorry I can ever do anything right, and nothing that I do is good enough to make it in your world. I'm sorry I caught your bf with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for... I'm sorry That I told you I loved you and actually meant it. I'm sorry That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your bf was threatening you instead of spending time with my family. I'm Sorry That i cared I'm sorry that I listen to you at night talk about how you wish you could have done something different. Ladies always bitch and bitch to their friends that there is never any good guys out there, and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them. Well ladies next time you're bitching, maybe look up to see who you're bitching to, maybe that special someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual, screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?" Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero I am strong and wise and I know no fear But the truth is plain to see She was sent to rescue me I see who I wanna be In my daughter's eyes In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace This miracle God gave to me gives me strength when I am weak I find reason to believe In my daughter's eyes And when she wraps her hand around my finger It puts a smile in my heart Everything becomes a little clearer I realize what life is all about It's hanging on when your heart has had enough It's giving more when you feel like giving up I've seen the light It's in my daughter's eyes In my daughter's eyes I can see the future A reflection of who I am and what will be Though she'll grow and someday leave Maybe raise a family When I'm gone I hope you see how happy she made me For I'll be there In my daughter's eyes

I need a little more sunshine in the middle of rain Need a little more joy in the middle of pain Need a little more color in the middle of this plain jane I’ve looked as deep as I can see And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me I need a little more patience in the middle of stress I need a little more beauty in the middle of this mess Need a little more substance in the middle of this emptiness I’ve looked as deep as I can see And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me Need more of You and less of me More of You and little less insanity More of You and little less complexity I’ve looked as deep as I can see It seems more of You is better for me I need a little more rhythm in the middle of this lazy rhyme Need a little more spontaneity in the middle of this daily grind Need a little more truth not music in this world of lies I’ve looked as deep as I can see And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me

I’ve heard it said today Is all we’re given Tomorrow may not come So you better start living I guess it all depends On your point of view Pardon me if I Just don’t listen To everything the world Say’s I’m missing There’s nothing here and now I’m gonna hold on to I’m living in the days ahead I’m already dancing on the streets of gold Can’t stop celebrating in my soul I’m living in the days ahead Nothing on earth could ever compare Can’t wait for the day that I get there When I see Jesus face to face Tell me what could be better Tell me what could be better If home is where the heart is then I’m in Heaven It’s the promise of tomorrow That I’ve been given Who is waiting there I am living for He’s everything I love And I believe in And I can hardly wait Just to see Him And hear Him say well done I couldn’t ask for more I’m living in the days ahead I’m already dancing on the streets of gold Can’t stop celebrating in my soul I’m living in the days ahead Nothing on earth could ever compare Can’t wait for the day that I get there When I see Jesus face to face Tell me what could be better Tell me what could be better Life is full of ups and downs Inside outs, round and rounds Can’t blame me for dreaming about it I’m living in the days ahead I’m already dancing on the streets of gold Can’t stop celebrating in my soul I’m living in the days ahead Nothing on earth could ever compare Can’t wait for the day that I get there When I see Jesus face to face Tell me what could be better Tell me what could be better

Good morning beautiful How was your night Mine was wonderful With you by my side And when I open my eyes And see your sweet face It's a good morning beautiful day I didn't see the light I didn't know day from night I had no reason to care But since you came along I can face the dawn Cause I know you'll be there Good morning beautiful How was your night Mine was wonderful With you by my side And when I open my eyes And see your sweet face It's a good morning beautiful day I'll never worry If it's raining outside Cause in here with you girl The sun always shines Good morning beautiful How was your night Mine was wonderful With you by my side And when I open my eyes And see your sweet face It's a good morning beautiful day, yeah A good morning beautiful...day Good morning beautiful A beautiful day Good morning beautiful Good morning beautiful A beautiful day Good morning beautiful day A beautiful day Good morning beautiful

I wanna wake up each morning With you for the rest of my life I wanna feel your heart beating And just get lost in your eyes You can tell me your secrets You can let me feel your pain You can show me your weakness And never be ashamed Hold on to me when your worlds turning cold When it feels like your life's spinning out of control You're hoping, praying, trying so hard to believe Hold on to me when theres no middle ground And every emotion is coming unwound And you don't know if you can hold on to your dreams Baby you can hold on to me I wanna lay down each evening With you right here by my side I wanna get drunk on your laughter And wipe all the tears when you cry You can scare me with your darkness You can blind me with your light Throw your worries out the window baby On your wildest night Hold on to me when your worlds turning cold When it feels like your life's spinning out of control You're hoping, praying, trying so hard to believe Hold on to me when theres no middle ground And every emotion is coming unwound And you don't know if you can hold on to your dreams Baby you can hold on to me Hold on to me when theres no middle ground And every emotion is coming unwound And you don't know if you can hold on to your dreams Baby you can hold on I said Baby you can hold on I said Baby you can hold on to me

I've been waiting, For a hero who's brave and strong. Someone to love me, Someone to tell me I belong. So I pretend I'm satisfied, And I stand watching on the sidelines. Til You pull me into the light And say, "It's your turn now, welcome to your life!" And You call me beautiful, Say You've loved me all along, And You've always held the keys to unlock my soul. You call me beautiful. There's a smile on my face, And a brand new light in my eyes, It's a new day, And I've never felt so alive, I feel as if I could conquer anything, That's what Your love has done for me, And now all I want to be, Is everything You want me to be- Oh, You call me beautiful, Say You've loved me all along, And You've always held the keys To unlock my soul, but I didn't know- Now I can finally start to live, Take those chances I have missed. Things will be much different, Now that I know You call me beautiful. The story is better than I could dream after all, Now this is reality To know You to hear You call me beautiful. Call me beautiful. Now I can finally start to live, Take those chances I have missed. Things will be much different, Now that I know, now that I know You call me beautiful.