I need that someone. That is willing to hold a relationship long and slowly.

No lies, no messing around, just you and me building a relationship and taking it to the next level each time we spend every minute together.

I need someone that won’t take advantage of me.

Someone that loves me for who I am, not for my looks, and what I have.

No sex, no making out. Let’s just cuddle and tell each other our stories.

I need that one person that won’t take me for granted. Who'll love me unconfitionally. As if he we're a blind man. 

All thats never been validated or resolved. All my lifes pain, stays consistent by the lack of un resolved issues. Those who insist on living their daily LIE. Not a one of them can look me in the eye. Not a one has the guts to stand strong and own their actions. For them I shed a tear. For them, they make me cry. For me, at least Im still alive. For me at least my life is not a lie.

 

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All my life, Ive never felt as though I belong. Confused on a constant. Unsure of who is or what is right or wrong. Only ever having movies or Tv, I learned to only trust what I could see. Words being nothing less then empty. Especially if coming from me. Beginning from birth, So those around me have made certain to agree. Always feeling as if I will "pop"! Never finding the right words, & that factor never seeming to stop. To little to late is clear & always the fate to me. Ive know idea what it is I expected. Only that the warm loving closeness is all I ever wanted. The ideal stereo type is what I thought was right & all this pent up anger in me is due to that never being in my sight. Happiness is all I seek. My choices made directly to become the ideal stereo type. Having watched all my life, other's having & doing everything I ever wanted. All due to their loving families. I felt for sure when I began to set my mind to my life's plan. That the circle that of which I come from would be broken. Greed & selfishness & lack of humanity, the plethora of crimes my eyes have seen. The blood line I come from being nothing less then obscene. Good intentions, I'm sure where somewhere. Though for me they were eluded & the lesser of all, used as a tool, it shoved down my throat. Neglected & unheard, intentionally miss guided. I'm your personal patsy. Jaw work creating more & making it happen. This blood line, I come from, riddled with gross humanity, lie's & secrets. Validation, acceptance of responsibility during hypocrisy. They only come foreword when your making more money or become a small celebrity. Delude the truth to gain personal gain, its politics & seems to be the way of true humans. Humanity truly being a farce, every last wonderful actually being an accident. & brainiacs we are not. Do as I say not as I do, though in life's plan, it often forces you to become untrue. As genuine as the heart can be, idea's & lie's seem be the prevailed & what all want to see. Life full of heartache & confusion, who is really full of delusion. I question myself more then all else. Simply due to my entire life's doubts. Word semantics is a bail out, the one thing the deceptive hold onto for their way out. Though be you a man of your word. Whats that mean really? Not a soul in my life Ive found that I could trust freely. Inexperience & ego in the way, who isn't there, that we cant offend? So when does it stop let alone begin. When the misunderstood is allowed to be heard & live again. I can't be alone in my ideas, I can't be the only one whom has lived feeling these things. As unique as humanity is suppose to be, I find it difficult to believe since all Ive been taught is how much of a nothing I & that fact eludes me. Everyones perspectives is what seems to be the truth. Though black & white is what is always mute.

You've put a skip to my step. Kept my mind wrapped up. Given me hope. Irony is just how much Ive missed you though we've never met. To hear your voice sooths me so. To know I've your heart. Allows me to dream again or even just future trip. I can't wait to meet you, let alone see you. To be able to touch just your face. Makes me giddy, the thought of it elates me. As each day progress's. I can't help but wonder just how much of this is infatuation or simply it being what it is? For now I will ignore that, but wont put it out of my mind. I really truly wish,... meeting you. Will be my last time. As I will be yours,.. & you will be mine. All we have between us are miles & time. ...

... ... I've a passion for art & music. I enjoy my freedom of being me. I enjoy the things I adore. I seek nothing less then appreciation of my vast appetite towards art & music. I'm far more open minded then, I may seem. Especially in regards to the things we human beings do to express our selves, ... in our art,.. being art or music though they are one in the same to me. Word semantics are a must for the shallow & closed minded. Such is life to have to cater to such dramatics. I can only hope to be appreciated as much as I appreciate.

Relationship is based on friendship, admiration & approval of each others wishes. Lack of regard for each other and hope is going to shape into dejection than this can slowly grow into loathing. I am aware of all my partner’s weakness but we should be able to bear some bad qualities. Share and persuade interests, values and desires to prolong each other identity. Respecting each others estimation by giving adequate time to demonstrate ideas explicitly. Don’t criticize each other among public & try to forget and ignore mistakes. Living in matching standards & life style which counterpart your personality & enhance your relationship. Cultivate your relationship with respect to acceptable path for both. Mutual respect with Love will only structure lasting sturdy respectable relationship.