I figured that people who look at my page might want to know about me. im not really good @ describing myself so here goes.. I am a shy and quiet person. Always have been. I dont express my feelings to anyone. I almost always keep things to myself. Ive been told that I should sleep more than I do but thats easier said then done sometimes. Sometimes when I do actually try and sleep my mind is still going and doesnt want to stop so thats y im usually online so late. As for friends. I do have a few offline but alot of them are online. I have gotten close to some of them. Well.. as close as u can get when the friendship is online. Im loyal to my friends both online and offline and of course my family. I do read alot read and yes that includes the Harry Potter series. I do watch PR still. As for my life..well.. there isnt much I can say on that fact right now. I do plan on staying a virgin for my lifetime. Im sorry if you cant accept that. Alot of people that I used to talk to online couldnt accept that. I dont really care what people think of me. Let them think what they want cause I know the truth. Ive been called freaky and weird so im used to it. Im hoping that someday people can get to know people instead of juding by how someone looks. Ive been told that I dont take compliments very well. i wouldnt know how to answer that cause i guess it might be true. I guess I dont have a lot of self-confidence in myself. Im not beautiful, never thought I was. As for trusting people, it takes me awhile to trust people. Besides My family and friends, ive pretty much been by myself . Since it might end up being that way 4 my lifetime i guess ive kinda gotten use 2 it. Its been 6 or 7 years that he has been gone. I dont really have any memories of him. I should have gotten to know him while he was alive but i was stupid enough not 2. Now all I have are a birthday card or 2 and a scrapbook my grandma made me of pictures of when he was little. It would have been nice to have him there 4 graduation. When he was still alive, I always thought He would be there 4 my graduation but I guess I was wrong. Im not sure if he ever did love me , maybe he did , maybe he didnt but Dad since I never actually told u... I hope that somehow you will be able to know that I Love You and Miss You. Dad I know ur probably never going to know this since there isnt a way for you to read this since your dead but maybe ur spirit is looking down and reading as i type this. I should have told u or at least written it in a letter to u while u were still alive but that was another stupid mistake on my part. Seems like where My Dad is concerned I've been stupid. I've also been called cold-hearted since I never cried when I was told that he died. I couldn't bring myself 2. Actually haven't cried in years. Not sure if thats another bad trait of mine or not. I guess that depends on who you ask. I consider the happiness of my friends and family more important than my own. As long as they are happy , thats whats important. I do keep to myself most of the time unless a friend or family member needs me. I don't get into other peoples business. I'm fine as long as People don't try and change me into something im not. I'm fine with just being the way I am which is a shy quiet person who holds her family and friends happiness more important than her own.I know a lot of the time people might find me strange but thats who i am.
