well im picking up more hours at work yay .not really its more money in my pocket b ut less time for everything ..i need a better job..that pays more so i can work less oh yeah and actually afford to live here. with my friend i went to plannedparenthood today got tested and got my birth control refilled and i had to pee in a cup and i couldnt do it for the life of me hahah i must have drank 2 or 3 bottles of water hhahah finally did it and then i was all dont i went into the waiting room and talked to ashly aboiut having kids and shit like that and how im on the line about the whole situation because of work but i guess what it all comes down to is that im afraid .. i know if it ever happens ill be a great mom everyone says so and hell ive got 3 godsons ...im just secondguessing my self anyways they called her in so i waited and then thought about everything going.weather or not im gonna move away and where to , what i want to do with life you know all that jazz . i fell asleep and then we went and visited our old highschool and saw some old teachers hahah ej the on campus supervisor gave me his number so we could keep in touch it was pretty kool and a bunch of people were like midgit wtf how are hahah it was nice i missed the teachers though some of them helped me out a lot. i might go on a trip in the n ext month or so im really excited about it hahah i havent had aq vacation in so long ... a real one other than going to organ but i dont count that its like my second home. im very very excited though ..hopefully it all works out and doesnt end up like the trip i was supposed to go on to kansas. tonight i have practice at the studio and then sunday were doing the show at hoguebarmicheals so im a little scared just cause i havent been on stage in so lon g but i think ill do fine anyhways im gonna take a nap before work .bye,..... penis