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5 mins and what seemed like a lifetime i hurt bleed and should have died i made a terrible mistake ten years ago and ive spent what seems like a lifetime paying for it maybe now i know the reasons why i havent died as the lord know i should b dead havent heard of many people surviving hitting a concrete wall in excess of 100 mph like i did on thanksgiving eve 2003 with no selt belt on and live to tell about it i was in my own hell and didnt care who i hurt or not my mother bless her somehow has still put up with me and the hell i put her through ive lived through a personal hell of not seeing my kids for over 9 years and because of a sudden burst of rage i have spent the last 9 plus years in hell i dreamed of today and had nightmares of what my actions have cost me something that can never b replaced no matter how many stories i hear from her about my kids the scrapes the 1st days of school 1st loves and seeing them opening christmas presents ive lost it so i guess i will contuine to pay in my own way but now i ahev what i have wanted for as long as i can remember my daughters and sons back in my life thank you whatever power that made this nightmare and personal hell end