About me and my dad Me and my dad never really got o see each other. I just started to see him when i was 13 and then i lost contact with him again after that. Then i just started to see him again when i was 15 and i really kind of got close to him i felt like he was really my father unlike the other times when i basicually did not know him at all. I had a few pictures o him here and there. in march 2006 my father pulled and inccadent with guns and wanting to kill us though i dont think he was alll there.My father could not see us for a long time it is still 2006 but the thing is i would cry all the time not in front of people but alone unless it was with my sister kassii.. i really missed and wanted my father. we called him one day we werent alowed to becuase of the protection order and told him how i missed and loved him and i think that was the first time i had actaully told him i loved him. In september a huge thing happend and we where all torn appart. on september 22,2006 my dad had gotten in to a fight with his girlfriend and shot himself in the head. I was heart broken to find out i couldnt even breath i was crying so hard i had now known that i would never have a father again.. well i would but not here with me. If i had one wish i would take back time. I cry myself to sleep everynight about him unless i am sleeping with someone.. but then i still dream of him. every where i go i think i see him or smell him but he is not hear and i know that. When i went to his funeral open casket i couldnt even look at him at first i was secound to look at him i was standing behind my sister and i looked over she kissed him on his forehead and i basicaully fell to my knees crying i could not believe it was him. later on i went up to pay my respects to my father i slowely made my way up and kissed him and held his hand and told him how much i loved him and missed him and that i knew he was in a better place now. He was so cold and stiff. I could see where they tryed to cover up the whole on the side of his head. Well im goig to stop talking about this for right now. So all i want to meet is my father once more.
