March 2004
My thoughts are all scrambled
My mind running a mile a minute
The images becoming so clear
One thought is to take the rope and slowly
Put around my neck.
Not caring about how long it will take,
Just wanting to leave this god forsaken place.
Then another thought and image jump in my mind,
Wanting to be free and not lonely anymore.
I could make the incissions so deleactly
Parrallel and sit back and watch,
As the blood pours and starts
Swirling around and around
I realize my blood is ME,
If my blood could run free like that then so can I
But what of the one who has to clean up?
So my next thought was all that medication!?!?
It's so easy just to open and swallow
Go and lay were you want your last breath to be taken
Yes, this is the one
This is how I will go tonight
To close my eyes with all the hurt and lonelyness
And let it all slip away into the dark abyss of my mind
To dream wonderful dreams that I will never
Have to wake up to and lose again
To all those who didnt want this I am sorry
But to sleep for eternity or live in hurt and lonelyness
Well all I have to say is I
have decided,
I dont want to hurt anymore
I dont want to be alone or lonely anymore
I want to sleep for eternity, peacefully
by: Malissa M. Watkins
