Just when I thought life was going to settle down....I have a new job that I really love. I have made some very important decisions regarding my life lately and I have decided that life is too short to be in an unhappy marriage. It's time to find a new place to live and get on with my life away from the fear. So once I made that decision, I thought...whew....things will finally be ok....and then.........
My beautiful youngest daughter Mandi has been through so much in the last year....the abduction, the beating, the PFA against an ex-boyfriend and the violation of that PFA, the court hearings, the sentencing.....it's all more than an 18 year old young lady should have to go through but she proved how strong she was (even if she didn't think so at the time). Last spring she went to the doctor and they found some pre-cancerous cells. A biopsy was preformed and then cryotherapy was done a month later. She went back to the doctor in mid-August and the doctor said she was healing wonderfully and there were no signs of any more of those nasty cells. The doctor had told her that her lab results would still come back a bit abnormal but there wasn't anything to worry about. Then about two weeks later, we were notified by the doctor that her lab results came back more abnormal than he would have liked and he decided to send her to Roswell Park in Buffalo for a 2nd opinion. For those of you who are not familiar with Roswell...it's a "cancer" hospital. We don't know what's in store for her there. It's all very scary. Mandi is engaged to a really great guy and they want to have a baby....as soon after the wedding as they can. All of that will be decided upon after we've been to Roswell. Her appointment is September 24th.....
I hope and pray that her doctor is being overly cautious wanting this 2nd opinion...but I have to say taking her there will be one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
Thanks for taking the time to read this....it's helped me putting it all into words.....I am being strong for her but at night when I am alone, I cry. I won't let her see my tears or my fear......
