I'm trying to grasp on to reality before the holidays. People that know me very well know how I already feel about the holidays, hell last year I tried to overdose myself with pills on Christmas Eve.
Anyways, those that know me really really well will know that I have a dog named Doober (there are pics of him in my album). The other day I came in from work and found him not in the greatest spirits. As the night progressed he became paralyzed in the back of his legs.
I took him to the vet yesterday and they said that he has a slipped disc and he is 50% paralyzed in his back legs.
The vet gave him some shots and said either way with improvement bring him back today. If impovement he will start to take monthly meds, but he will never be back to 100%.
I fear the inevitable that I may have to put him to sleep. I'm scared, I can't quit crying, confused and most of all angry. I dont want to be selfish and keep him alive if he is not going to be happy, but who wants to remember having to put their best friend down during the holidays.....
Anyways, just how I'm feeling right now....
