What causes someone to push you away? What causes that person to make you sit alone at might crying because they aren't making seance? Why should I keep pushing forward when every time I do you knock me further back than I was? Why must I live in pain because I want to love you? Why should I wait any more? Why when I offer my proverbial shoulder for you to cry on when your down, my ear when your mind is overloading with your troubles don't you take my offer and let me ease your trouble the best I can? Why do I keep letting myself get hurt by sticking around for the hope...no the dream at a love that is given both ways not just from me to you? You know whats sad? With every question I keep thinking the same answer..."I DON'T KNOW!!!"
I am starting something new. I am going to start being true to myself. There will be no more waiting, no more crying at night, no more letting you hurt me. I have a couple friends that have really open my eyes. Oh and b4 you get all huffy and start pointing fingers you only know one of them, and believe it or not they did not do most of the talking that opened my eyes. I have the chance at having a happy life as the person within without worrying about how people are gonna make fun of me. I have a way to truly live as who I am. I am setting myself free. So thanks for showing me I was wrong...........I was wrong for letting you in my heart because you never let me in yours, I was wrong for Beating myself down over you when it wouldn't be you picking me back up. So all in all thank you very much.
