rEpPiN dA 254 fO lYph's blog: "Mah Poems..."

A lonely bird... Lost everything it had Grief and sorrow So alone, so deserted Like it's invisible A frozen river... Sounds of nothingness No longer forever flowing Everything has stopped Like it never existed A lonely bird... Looking for something Alive as ever A frozen river... Just sitting there Still as night What's next...?

So cold like a frozen river, Stopped dead in it's flow No movement, no sound... Nothing left inside, just emptiness Nothingness... So lonely like an apple fallen from a tree, All of a sudden, for no reason at all No expectations, no grasp Nothing there with it, all alone Devastation... So hopeless like a bird without wings, Can't fly, so it walks No destination, no hope Nothing but sadness Patheticness... Nothingness, devastation, Patheticness... Can it get any worse?

Tell me how this feeling can be so strong, when I never kissed her, touched her, or even saw her. It's almost 2 years now that we've been together. I have never loved like this before. And especially not without a kiss. I guess the saying..."You'll know whether it's love or not, when you kiss them."...does not apply in this situation. She means the world to me, and I can't live without her. The butterflies I get when we talk, either online or on the phone, are amazing! When she says she loves me, I know she means it. I mean, how could she not...if it's been so long yet we never met? Yea, I wish I could hold her, and kiss her, and all that...but it seems like it wouldn't do anything but make this love stronger. That's not bad or anything, it's the best thought in the world. Hmm...to love someone you've never kissed or met in person this much...it's so different. It's much stronger than anything I have ever felt before. It's like I can't live without her, yet i've never lived with her...let alone held her. So tell me...do you think it's true love? Cause I feel it is.

do you know? like a shooting star, it goes and comes it feels so far, every now and then off in the distance, i see ur face my heart is in a race, and doesn't ever slow with every beat, is a thought that makes me jump to my feet so exciting my love for you is something that won't change but if only you knew... it would be better i sit here and wonder how this could be can't stand it much longer before i break everytime i say i love you, i hope everyday that you'll love me too you are everything if ur not there my broken wing will never be healed don't ever doubt me like i've doubted you i just want you to see that this feeling is real that's all i wish for cause everyday i just love you more and it's so great when u speak it's like i can't move cause i get so weak but then there's a change you give me the strength when you say "I love you." at an extended length my heart will explode so i just want you to know that forever and always i will love you so nothing will change that and now i shall go...

i've hurt you once but never again i love you baby from now until tha end you're mah baby you're mah world you're mah love you're mah girl but most of all you're my life you changed me so and i'll neva forget you are there for me in the most needed times i appreciate that i try ta do tha same you've improved mah life in so many ways i can never repay you cause it will neva amount i love you wit all mah heart and don't you eva forget i will be here for you always i just can't describe what i feel right now it feels so incredible it's so hard to explain you are all i have now but you're really all i need if i were to lose you my world would collapse like it never even existed if that happened i would lose my mind i've come so close before but you always helped me through i guess i'm in one of those mushy mooods i like these moods but only with you you seem to make me smile when it seems impossible the feeling that we share is the very best ever... i love you baby, more than anything more than anyone i could never lose you i just hope you know... that the hurt i caused i regret totally i'm sorry i hurt you but when u forgave me that made me realize the love you really had i know i have doubted you before but no more, not me you've changed me, and that's it...