BAMBAM's blog: "luck"

im in kosovo, and im bored and feeling useless. i wish i was in the sandbox, doesnt matter which one.im on a peacekeeping mission here. im not a peace time soldier, i discovered that when i was doing the bulshit training to come here. im a war time sodier.i have to be in danger, doesnt matter i could get killed. i am happy when im in danger. i dont fear death. i dont feel the same way as alot of the guys i deployed with do.

im back online. i am now in kosovo, been here 3 days. i am bored to death.

after tomorrow, i wont be online for a few weeks.im leaving for training in germany, then im off to kosovo for my deployment. hope people will stay in touch, and i will be back online as soon as possible

i will be oofline for a bit after tonight. i will be leaving to go to trainup for kosovo tomorrow morning. will try and get online if i can find a computer that has internet.

well i have about 3 weeks till i start training for my deplyment. It cant get here fast enough. Im ready for another deployment, i more then likely will volunteer while on this deployment for another one in iraq. If for some reason i cant get one to iraq, i guess i will do what i have been putting off. I will go to a school for massage therapy. I know it will make my family happy i i dont deploy again. The waiting is the most boring part of this whole deployment, well so is the whole doing the online crap i have to do. The whole filling out a survey on what do if im captured, telling them how many tattoos i have and all that other crap. I dont plan on getting captured, i plan on fighting till im dead if it comes down to it.

so im at this club on tuesday, and one of the waitress' comes in off work to drink.we are tslking and the conversation is going good.well the club was closing down and me being the nice guy i am, asked her if her and her friend who also worked there was ok. asked if they needed a ride, they said they would let me know. we exchanged numbers. i texed her to make sure things were ok and that they were bein taken care of, she said yes, that i was a sweetheart for being there for them. then all of a sudden the question is aked, she says, how old are you? i text her back and tell her that im 37, no reply back. i know its not a big deal, i will always be there for the women that work there. i will be a bouncer there till i leave, but i mean age is just a number. she was all interested, before the age was even talked about. i was sitting there havin a drink, she walked up and started talking to me. i didnt initiate anything. how messed up is that, or i just me.

Name: Bram Birthday: August 30th, 1970 Birthplace: St. Joseph, MO Current Location: Jefferson City, MO Eye Color: brown Hair Color: brown Height: 5ft9 Right Handed or Left Handed: right Your Heritage: irish,scottish,french canadian,german, cherrokee The Shoes You Wore Today: reebok tennis shoes Your Weakness: beautiful ladies Your Fears: heights Your Perfect Pizza: supreme without mushrooms Goal You Would Like To Achieve:lose some weight Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol or cool Thoughts First Waking Up: Im still here Your Best Physical Feature: my eyes Your Bedtime: whenever I feel like going Your Most Missed Memory: being deplyed Pepsi or Coke: coke MacDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds Single or Group Dates: single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino Do you Smoke: only when i drink Do you Swear: every fuckiing day Do you Sing: yes Do you Shower Daily: yes Have you Been in Love: yes Do you want to go to College: need to finish Do you want to get Married: maybe Do you belive in yourself: very much so Do you get Motion Sickness: nope Do you think you are Attractive: think im average at best Are you a Health Freak: yes Do you get along with your Parents: yes Do you like Thunderstorms: yes Do you play an Instrument: no In the past month have you Smoked:yes In the past month have you been on Drugs: no In the past month have you gone on a Date: no In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:no In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no In the past month have you been on Stage: no In the past month have you been Dumped: no In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no Ever been Drunk: hell yea Ever been called a Tease: lol more than once Ever been Beaten up: nope Ever Shoplifted: no How do you want to Die: a blaze of glory What do you want to be when you Grow Up: im doing it What country would you most like to Visit: japan In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: doesnt matter Favourite Hair Color: doesnt matter Short or Long Hair: doesnt matter Height: doesnt matter Weight: less then me Best Clothing Style: whatever she feels comfy in Number of Drugs I have taken: none Number of CDs I own: 50 Number of Piercings: none Number of Tattoos: 4 Number of things in my Past I Regret: I don't regret anything

i found out today that most the people n the unit im going with have never been deployed. i heard about it today when i was talking to a guy who used to be in the unit. i know im gonna have to listen to stupid people trying to tell me how things are gonna be. they arent gonna listen to a fuckin thing i say, im gonna be treated ike an outcast right off the bat. i would rather this be a deployment to iraq. im not gonna have the feeling i have when im in iraq. the whole i could be killed anytime. it might be dangerous, but i doubt it. i love knowing i could be killed at anytime, it keeps me on my feet.

who ever knows what im talking about. im still trying to get deployed back to iraq. im down here in texas till janurary 31st. been toying with the idea of trying to go to ft lewis washington. been told they arent taking anyone in the unit im with. been thinking about wisconsin, or maybe georgia. my main thing is trying to get deployed. i know i would make my family sad, but hey i got 2 other brothers, if something happens to me. i have a brother who says i need to be checked out for PTSD(post traumatic stress disorder), and for mTBI(mild traumatic brain injury). still not sure if im gonna get checked out or not.

someone hacked into my yahoo account. so if you should get anything from the bram_28_cpl@yahoo.com then delete it. my new yahoo name you will have to message me for it.