It begins when the object of your affection betows upon you a heady hallucinogenic dose of something youve never even daredto admit you wanted an emotional speedball of thunderous love and excitment.Soon u start craving that attention with the hungry obsession of any junkie.When its withheld you turn sick crazy not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouragedthis addiction in the frist place but now refuses to pony up the good stuff.Godamn him and he used to give it to u for free.Next stage finds you skinny shaking in a corner certain only that you sell your soul just to have that one thing one more time.meanwhile the object of you adoration is now repulsed by you,he looks at you like someone hes never met before. The irony is you can hardly blame him I mean check yourself out your a mess. unrecognizable even to your own eyesYou have now reached infatuation final destination The complete and merciless devaluation of self.