NIMSTER's blog: "love???"

This is a poem i found that has got so much in common with me right now, I have changed it slightly because i have sent it to a friend of mine who i feel like this about and she is female but the poem was written as a female so i changed the word man to woman basicly that is the only change that has been made

You walked into my Life, when my world was dark and cold,
you held out your arms, and my heart and soul you did hold.
You promised you would never leave, that you would always be there,
I never knew that I meant so much, that my heart was worth enough to care.

You showed me so many things, I started to dream of you every night,
you melted the coldness in my heart, with the warmth of your light.
I ended up falling for you, how could I not - you're an Angel in disguise,
and every touch from you makes my soul hot.

But then you told me it's not the same.
for you only think of me as a friend, I cannot understand this, the wrong messages did you send. I never knew you bought your friend things,
and touched them like a lover, I never knew you held your friends' hand and caressed them under the covers.

I am so far, I cannot turn back now, you are My Best friend,
so what do I do now. I don't know much, except here I am again
in Love with another woman who only wants to be my friend.

I'm not sure if this is wrong, then again I don't know what's right,
I will Love You Anyways, even if its a lonely fight.

What is love??

        I believe that love is out there for everyone and i am happy to say i belive i have loved a special girl that was tradgicly taken away from me just under 3 years ago in a car accident. I have no told many people about it and i dont plan to go into detail about it on here because that to me is not right and tarnishes the memories that i have if i share them with anyone that i do not trust fully. I know that there is 1 person i have told about what happened and that is because i trust them whole hartedly (yes i know i cannot spell lol)

         So back to the question What is love? Is love a feeling or a memory or a mixture of both? I myself belive it is both of them because you feel so much when you love someone and you also treasure the memories that you have of that person the things you have done and the times you have talked and laughed together weather it be in person or on the computer or on the phone. I do believe that love is out there for everyone and you do not only get one chance at love because if i believed that you did i might aswell not still be here because if that was true my chance would of been taken away from me a long time ago. My thoughts and memories are all i have of the girl i fell in love with 6 years ago and who was taken away from me just under 3 years ago but i believe that memories are what keeps us fighting when we lose someone that means so much to us weather it is a parent or a brother or sister or a husband or wife or a boyfriend or sgirlfriend or even just someone that makes us smile and laugh when times are hard.

           I am only able to make this blog because of 1 friend i have made in this past year who has helped me realise that things are bad sometimes but we have to fight for the good times and realise that whenever they come around we have to grab them with both hands and never let them go by creating and holding onto our memories of that time. I am so greatful to this one friend who i will not publicly say there name because that would not be right and i just would not be the person i am right at this time without them so i thank them from the bottom of my heart they are the best friend i could of hoped to meet even if it was through a computer but you know who you are if you are reading this and thank you so so much.

             Anyway back to the question again what is love? So i have said that love is feelings and memories all mixed together but is that all that love is? I do not know if that is all it is and will we all find love? i hope so because there is someone out there for everyone!! the hard part is finding that person because we do not know where love is to be found.. It could be on a bus in a cafe or even just sitting infront of the computer but it is out there for all of us.. some of us have found it and some of us have lost it but is it better to of loved and lost than to never of loved at all? I think it is because then you atleast have the memories to help you through the bad times.

              So i ask again what is love? if you have anything to say or to add to my answer please comment or send me a message.

Thank you for reading this and hope that you find your love soon or keep it forever because if it wasnt for love this world would be a very boring place..