How do you know that this time is going to be different?? How do you know that what you are feeling is also felt by the one you love?
when do you know it is the right time? do you ever really know? is it really ever easy to totally trust someone when you have been lied to so many times? how do you get rid of the feeling that you are just being used as a puppet?
I am so in love right now, but thats what i thought when i was married too, and after 11 years i finally woke up and realized i was just the convience at home. a nice little toy kept aside for whenever. what are you supposed to think when your spouse comes home later and later everynight? then they never really answer the question as to what kept them out all night and one day really stop talking at all? and you know that they cheated in their previous marriage and you know how he treated her when the split up?
and then just because you screw up 1 time the whole blame of the marriage failing is laid in your lap, you are made out to be the evil monster who destroyed their life.
and now you realize the mistakes you made years ago can be erased and you can start over with someone you never stopped loving, never stopped caring about, thought about all the time but yet you can't stop wondering if the love you feel from them is real or just on the surface.
will you always be suspicious? how do you know that your not just going to wind up with your heart trashed again?
i hate feeling this way. here i am ready to jump but i can't help but look back and hope you are jumping with me and not just letting me fall alone. please babe, don't let me fall if you are not going to be there to catch me.
