Ima start out wit a quote " Love can sumtimes be magic...but magic is sumtimes jus an illusion."
Love is a very difficult thing 4 me. I honestly don't think that people care bout me as much as they say they do. If I die tomorrow would you care?
Everyone always told me that the love between a mother and a child is the strongest love...but is it?
I don't know my mother she left us (my dad, my 2 brothers, and myself) when i was about 5 years old. My dad told me that it was because she met sumone new and she was doing drugs but as far as im concerned thats jus 1 side of the story there are always 2 sides but I often think to myself that if she really did love me n my brothers wouldn't you think that she would try ta keep in touch?
I love my son more than anything in this world and couldn't imagine him not being here wit me!
But wat i'm tryin ta get at is there is a different kinda love that I have never been too lucky at and thats the love between a man and a woman. I don't think that i'm ugly or anything I think that I have sum pretty good qualities to offer but I do have things about me that aren't all that great either but wat can I say I am who I am I have been 4 a very long time can you change who you are I don't think that i would ever ask anyone 2. Anyways 4 sum reason guys don't wanna be wit me I have never been in a relationship 4 longer then 2.5 years if anyone can tell me wat i'm doin wrong pls do cuz i'm kinda in tha dark bout it.
I meet guys all the time and this may seem weird or w/e but yes i do put em in categories
#1) The Losers: These guys are the guys that only want you for 1 thing SEX! I mean I love sex too but that isn't the only thing in life!
#2) The Sweethearts: These are the guys that are really good as friends and yes I know ya'll don't wanna hear that and i'm sorry but as unfortanuate as it is all the sweethearts I have ever met haven't been very attractive and I can't really be in a relationship wit sumone that i'm not attracted to can you? i'm sorry again but its a harsh reality.
#3) The Liars: These are the guys that I always find myself gettin caught up wit. At the beginning they are the nicest guys they tell you everything you wanna hear like how beautiful you are, how they would do anything 4 you, and how life just wouldn't be the same without you there. but once that beginning phase is ova they change cuz i guess they feel that they own you so they don't have ta keep sayin stuff that they always knew wasn't true.
Thats exactually tha way all of my ex's have been so it makes me think is there actually sumone out there 4 me sumone thats cute, honest, reliable, respectable, loyal
sumone that can love me 4 me wit all my good and my bad cuz I definatly am not perfect no one is!
Well ima stop blabbin now and i jus wanna say if you read this whole thing thanks and I will take any comments good or bad I won't hate on ya 4 your honest opinion!
