I have been Married now for 6 yrs and been together since 1999. This is My 2nd Marriage. I Love this man more then anything in the whole world, more then my 1st Husband. I feel so much more for him, and considered him to be my Soul Mate. The thing is I know he Loves me but I just don't feel like we are on the same page. He says he Loves me, but has a difficult time expressing it or rarely does. I am a very afectionate person, he's not (he was at one point very affectionate). He seems distant to me allot of times. He has little to n interest in sex, cuddling, kissing or any affection in general. About 2 weeks ago he meet up with and ended up sleeping an old fling. We been together for 10 yrs approx. and he has never done anything like this. And it makes no sense to me for a man with little to no sex drive to go and do this. I Love him with all my Heart and I don't want to lose him, but I don't want to keep feeling rejected or just plane unwanted. Or keep wondering if he would rather be somewhere else. It hurts me so much, I want him to be happy as well as myself, but it seems wee are in a rut or something. I just don't know what to do or say anymore. He says he is trying and doing his best, he actually started counseling and went on med's about 3-4 wks ago(hopefully to help with his anger,depression and drug & alcohol Issues). But since on the med's he does seem less angry, but out of character and seems to show even less affection and sex drive to almost none. I just feel so lost and beside myself.
Well TY for letting me vent, if anyone has any possitive input or advice or has expeerienced anything similar...please share with me...I Love him so much and want this to work !!
Thank you & God Bless Joyce
