i talkd to maggie the other night and it was inlightning i guess she told me she still loves me but i don't know how im supposed to take all of this i love her to death and she knows that i feel so safe when im with her and can actualy feel comfterable around her no matter what its just some times i feel like shes placating(sp?) me and i dont like that feeling at all i never thought i would find the woman i want to spend my life with and know im afraid i have and will never get her back things are just hard right now and it sucks shes sooo far away and she comes home next year for 13m but then she leaves again so if we get back together its going to b worse when she leaves ive never had her for more than a week to my self so 13m is forever o well no sense dwelling on it right now ttyl
