To: My Dearest Love,....
I have finally found some time amidst my tears to sit down and write you this letter. I have so much to say and don't know where to start. But here it goes!.. ..
Our time together has finally come to an end; I wish it would have lasted forever. The time I spent in your arms was the most precious and cherished time of my life. It gave me what I needed to feel whole. When My soul was at peace and my heart was full. In your arms I felt safe and loved more than I could have ever imagined. The times we spent together loving and holding each other was as any person could ever expect. We had our bad times too, but over came the challenges we had faced in our pathway to our forever. As the road blocks came we hurtled over them with eager intentions. We gave each other our hearts and souls for safe keeping as we knew that in life there is always a chance left for them to be hurt again. The time did come, and we found that one block in the road that seemed completely impassable, and for some reason we couldn't get over it. For no future could never take away my past, and no other will hold my memories, as you are their only keeper. There will be moments in my years to come when something will remind me of a moment with you, and I will smile, and I will remember. But then I will move on cause I have to.
I want to tell you thank you for all the great times we had together and thank you for holding my heart for a while. Today it bleeds more than ever before, as I had never loved another as I did you. I have never had those funny butterfly feelings when I kissed a man as I did when I kissed you. When you touched me so gently it was like velvet blanketing my skin, your wispers in my ears was like the sound of a sentual wind that carressed my soul. When we made love it was the most amazing moments I have ever experienced with any one in my life. ....
I want you to know that I will always love you and that little girl I had never had. She was the greatest little girl. I miss you and her with all my heart and my tears fall as I think about you now. I hope that when your hate and anger fade you will see that what I am saying is how you feel. .. ..
If our paths were to ever cross again I hope to find you at a better place in your soul and in your life. You will be a great man one day, it is written within the windows of your soul. I seen it there and I know that one day another will too. As I looked into your eyes I saw forever at peace with you there. You can give so much to another as you did me, I know you can find a way, I know you can get past the flaws that hold you back.. ..
When I sit down and look at our pictures and see all the memories we made together it saddens me to know they are at an end. I will hold deep in my heart the love you gave me and hold deep in my soul the memories to bare. I will face my life and all it has to give me and all the challenges I must overcome. I know that it will be hard going on without you and being able to hold you. I miss all the times we were able to sit and talk about anything, and be able to cry on each others shoulders when we needed too. We needed no other there to help us through, because we found a way to do it together. I had always thought I had overcome the biggest challenges in my life before I met you, But I know now I am about to face the biggest one yet of my life. The challenge of moving on without you!....
I know that now you are hurt and you are angry, and so am I, but in time it will fade and you will be able to love again. I know you will find that one true love that your heart can never let go. So my dearest today I am setting your heart free to fly, free to love another. Today I will lay my heart to rest in a bed of roses, where it will lay for safe keeping. I truly know I will never be able to love another again as I did you. And I know that I would rather spend the rest of my life alone missing you than with another I cannot love. .. ..
When life has beat you down and left you alone and you feel you have no where left to turn, look back as I will be standing there with open arms to comfort you. If not take this with you and know that no matter what you have someone out there that cares, even from a distance. The miles between us can never erase our past together. It cannot erase the memories... ..
I know this may not be what you want to hear right now, because you hurt and I hurt too. But somewhere in time you will start to think about things and it will all come back to you. You will remember all the good times and all the love we shared and you will miss it being there in your life. You will too come to a point when you ask yourself, why? Why did it have to end this way? It will take time, but you will!.. ..
My arms will be forever open and my heart will be forever yours. My soul will never find another to feel as one again. Always remember those forks in the road we talked about. Always remember there is another way. That if your journey in life does not lead you to a place in life you wanted to be, go back and choose a different path. Take that path and hold you head up, so you can see where it will lead you. Remember that what seems so bad now may not make a difference in the years to come. We alone can only choose where we end up. I hope yours is heaven when you get there. So now my dearest love I must go. Please remember what use to be there, please remember that it wasn't always bad. I will remember you. I will dream of you. I love you! And will love you forever!
Forever Yours,
Unforgettable Memories @}-{-
@}-{-- Tammy Rose Duysen --}-@
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