im in a better mood today than yesterday....that could just be my enlightened mood im in from the cause of something else...i guess when something is bothering you that a lil bowl pack wont hurt...not the anwser to all lifes problems but doesnt hurt right now... well i know what youre thinking.... mr.mackey is saying "drugs are bad, so don't do drugs mmkay?", and youre thinking "drugs are not the anwser"...blah blah blah....well spend 24 hours in my place and then youd be telling me different...i am content with the fact that i am alive and well and not dead in some grave somewhere.... so im not bitching...just stating the obvious...i need to relax and realize that i cant control fate and that i can only make things better or worse..its up to me to decide....i cant control someone elses feelings towards me, and i cant control how people treat me...all i can do is be good to them and realize that the mistakes i made in the past are in the past and theres nothing i can do to change them....this sounds like a buncha bullshit right?.... well since people are going to read these damn things i guess i should make one thing clear.... I love myself for who i am and thats the only person that will never stop loving me...which is me...im not conceded or anything of that nature.... i just hope i can find someone else to love....right?...either way have a great fucking day ":)....laters
