You pass me on the street and our eyes briefly meet
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank
In the elevator, you crack a joke. I flash a smile,
You have no idea that my heart is in denial
You ask me how my day was and I say fine
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line
My happiness is gone as I walk in this world
The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole
Once you lose your soul there is no turning back
Everything you once dreamed of no longer has an impact
You don't want to love nor do you want to have fun
Your days are so long the problems in your mind make you question if you should carry on
You smile so that's what people see on your face
They think that you are happy but deep down inside yo feel like a worthless disgrace
Each day the performance you put on for people is Emmy award winning
But you question yourself and wonder if your act is just a way for you to hold off your own internal sinnings
When you wake up from a night's sleep you wonder to yourself if today is the day your heart
will be back to its old self or will it still be skipping every other beat
You wonder if things that once made you happy to be alive will make a comeback
You wonder if the little things in life that made you who you are will have you once again dreaming to the stars
You wonder if you will feel less empty hearted
You wonder to yourself who holds the match to start that fire
You're tired of running and losing your breath
You want to hold tight to something that will help you once again enjoy the journey into lifes amazing treks
You want to feel that every day can be better than the last
You want to turn your lost soul feeling into a thing of your past...