nothing is ever easy, but at the momemnt, difficult would be welcome. my mind races daily, filled with nothing and my heart yearns for a love that will never be. i feel life groing inside me, but as it reaches the surface, the darkness that is the true me smashes it away. i am alone and only the drawing of sweet scarlet blood gives me any relief. to watch it dripp away is the only thing that makes me feel even a sparkle of life.
