Things could be much better right now, Because I ended up miscarrying the twins this morning at 7 am. It has been rough on both Matt and Myself. But we are holding strong though after what has happened. We both were looking forward to the babys being born but it didnt happen. But things happen for a reason to. It just wasnt meant to be. But it doesnt hurt mine and matts relationship at all, its actually pulled us together more closely. I was to have my check for my ssi but it hasnt come yet. I am beginning to wonder what the hell has happened and why I haven gotten it yet. But as soon as I do, things are really going to change for me and Matt completely. We arent going to be sticking around this bullshit area. I need to get away from sometime to gather myself together.But Matt and I still plan to remain together because we love each other regardless of what has happened!
