I have yet to find myself in this world so I am lost. Adrift on the sea of humanity with no one to be next to me. I should be used to it by now I suppose but I am not. My heart aches when I see friends with loved ones near and I have no one to turn to. I'm not sure what if anything I do wrong. I tend to think most people see me as a friends only person rather than something else. Of course given the drama in my life I can understand why someone would run the other way. It makes me want to curl up in a ball and just hide away but then how will I meet that someone who might change my life? Each day other rough time waking from the slumber where I dream of a better life for me and each day another disappointment. Maybe the next day will be better - one can hope. So I sit here alone on a weekend night listening to the crickets and frongs outside my window. Lulled to sleep by that sound I find myself finally at peace and thinking of the next day's adventure....and hopefully not drama.
hugs, kisses and love always to all my friends who have been there for me - cyberspace and reality. You are what keeps me going each day and night!