Have you ever been in a relationship where you wish you could have gone back and changed the past and corrected through the realization that you could fix it by fixing yourself?
yea.. me too.
but fate has a strange way of stripping your heart and soul of any form of love just to show you what you need to change and fix within yourself..that i do not understand. Why should it take a moment in time when your spouse tells you she does not want to be with you anymore that you realize things you should have done? in the process ripping your heart to shreds because you loved the person so much that you would have given them anything to stop it?
I know we all have been through this situation, i myself multiple times. But yet, This must be done...
I just wish i knew why?
Now don't get me wrong, I have all kinds of people telling me that there will be light at the end of the darkness and things will turn around and life will be all grand... and yet here i sit alone and afraid at the realization that my 7 year relationship has come to an end thanks to my spouse...
Honestly i should be used to this crap by now considering how many times i have had my relationships ended because she had found someone else. It still sucks and makes me feel like all my life is my fault including the relationships.
Am i the only one who feels this way? I know the depression is not helping at all..
Of course I think we all learn eventually from our relationships as to what we need to fix within ourselves, so that the next one will be better but, for pete's sake! you can go so many times dealing with a serious breakup until you just want to quit and live life alone ya know?
well.. i hope this time since i realized what has been the problems all along that its time to fix them. But, still I am living with a woman that broke my heart and has found someone else. Everyday it waving in my face.. I just want her to get out so i can get on with my life...
So, I know i am not the only one out here in fu land that has gone through something like this and with that hope that you can help not only me but others as well being friends and caring
just give me a gun so i can see how close i can come to shooting the bullet in my heart..... yea pain and being hurt sucks..im just tired of it after so many times, and no i am not going to kill myself im just making a point on how i feel.
so can i cry now?
