It's been 3yrs since I've become a widow...it in its self not really a big deal, is it? I'm not the only one this has happen to, not going to the last. LIFE GOES ON..THE BIRDS NEVER STOPPED SINGING..MY WORLD DIDN'T STOP.
After awhile, I thought about trying to "date"..I tried MySpace, just for one, to see what some of my own children were doing, and it was a way to keep in touch..meet people there, who of course, weren't who they said they were..it's all good. It was a rude awakening, and I learn a major lesson in life..DON'T TRUST ANYONE.. My second "dating site" was Singlenet.com...no luck there...next was Truebeginnings.com....nothing but problems..then a friend, had me try Fubar..bingo. This I could handle..I've learn my lesson..thinking, I could trust people once again..so I thought. or at least some. I've meet online some really sweet people...and become friends with. or at least I thought.
I base friendship on being honest, open and up front with me..I'm not one to judge anyone..each their own. But if you tell me one thing, and somewhere down the road, I heard different...my trust in you will diminish..so will the friendship or relationship...
I know, I've lied to people..for they had lied to me..is it right...is it wrong..I really don't know. I know I don't like lying to people. And, in most part, I'm trying to repent. There are some people on Fubar, take others as fools..and they like to play games with their head, heart, soul and spirits..maybe they lie, to keep their personal lifes private..if you have something to hide..do you have to play a game about it....
Maybe its me...Its coming close to March 20th the first day of Spring...the 3rd anniversary of my husband death...I'm ok with that..its just Spring was to be a new beginning...it's just not the same for me...I'll be ok. Heck, I have Fubar, family and a few friends. what more can I ask for?..Honesty, Trust, and Hope?
Thank you for letting me vent my frustrations..in case anyone reads this...if it didn't make any sense to you, I'm sorry...
