My hands now shake,
I take the gun,
I fought my demons,
But they won,
The cold hard barrel,
Against my head,
One small push and I`ll be dead…
No more running, not for me
It`s time to meet my destiny, I cannot breath
I cannot see
But now, I`ll finally be free…….
~
A black night, a clouded moon. All is peaceful, the harsh rays of the sun faded away long ago leaving the scent of soft flowers as the sounds of strange insects rises like a tribute to the magnificence of the night. Slowely the sound rises and the moor reaches its peak. Now, at the midnight hour, all is at peace. This is the way it is meant to be. The beauty of the night evelopes me and i feel totally at peace. In the distace i hear the sound of a train slowely chunging allong its way it passes by casting shadows upon the ground like miniature people dancing to the music of the night. it passes on and slowly fades into the unaudible distance into oblivion. I remain here basking in the glorious rays of the moon. This is where i belong, this is where i will remain. Here i am finally at peace.
~
I am the flint that creates the sparks which create the fires within their hearts and though i burn for the one i love ive sent her passion to the guy above i unite their heart in eternal care but then i realive my life is bear. Ive sent to another the girl of my dream. but hey life just sucks or so it would seem
~
(he wrote this one about me)
Amazingly nice and fun to be around, a great influence to all around her
Capable of loving anyone she chooses and easily being loved in return
Everyones life is enriched by her existence
More than just a cute latina girl, a beautiful latina woman
Over the top of everyones expectations and still rising
Open to new ideas and willing to join in any social thing that happens
Never too busy to help a friend out in need
Extra special hugs for anyone she knows needs one
Yesterday she was the best girl i knew and tomorrow that still won't change
~
(this one is for me, just letting me know he was there for me)
Sit there and speak of death and suicide, i will still care.
Talk of knives and bleding, no amout of scary suicidalness will scare me away. You speak of peope watching you fall with out reaching out to help you but i promise i will be there to catch you. Jump and I will follow with a rope to cary you back up and sit by your bedside until you return to health. You know you are cared for and seem to hate it but thats fine. I am here to take your blade and wrap your wounds. I will be there for you when you need. Whether you notice or not, I am here.
~
(we never dated, we'r just close enough friends to say that)
This goes out to my girl Ace
Dont ever be afraid to come to me and cry,
Dont ever hesitate to look me in the eye,
Dont ever be afraid to tell me how you feel.
Remember ur my friend and we gotta keep it real!!!
~
Oh this is the night
it's a beautiful night
and we call it bella notte
look at the skies
they have stars in their eyes
on this lovely bella notte
side by side with your loved one
you will find the enchantment here
the night will weave its magic spell
when the one you love is near, oh
this is the night
and the heavens all rise
on this lovely bella notte
~
Do your work. Stay up to par. We push you on, but not to far. Pay attention to pass the test, and don't forget to do your best. Work real hard into the night, tomorrow in class you'll do alright. Homework lost without a trace? Be prepared, now LD you face. Crammed in a room far to small, after this you won't stand so tall. We'll break you down to fit the mold. Next time do what your told. Meet the challenges of your class. Do the homework and you'll pass. Lose an assignment, fail the test. Pay the time like all the rest.
~
Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
You are still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day
Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right
You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
lonnie is one of my best friends, closer than anyone else i know, dont get the wrong idea about us tho
