I was thinking, why does everything seem so wonderful, then you have to hurry up and wait. I am tired and yet, very uplifted. My daughter called the other day and stated she loves it there at Fort Jackson. She is loving being in the Army. I am so relieved, glad, sad, happy, sleepless, and hyper all at the same time. I have 3 wonderful daughters, and now have the love of my life. My heart is finally complete. But yet I ache inside. I cant see my love as much as I want too, and a child is gone and I cant see her as much as I wwant to either. I cant even talk to them on the phone yet. Why do kids even have to grow up??? Why cant they stay young forever? I know I know, We have to let them grow up blah blah blah :( What if I dont want them too? I will always allow my girls the room to grow, although it doesnt mena inside I am not protesting it. One has made me a grandma. I love that boy. And I know that if they didnt grow up I wouldnt have him. Catch 22 huh? Being a parent is the hardest job I have ever had. You work so long and so hard to what? Let them go away?? Again, what if I dont want them to go away? LOL Yes, I know I have too. And I will. But doesnt mean I want too. Now I finally have met my soulmate, waiting all these years to meet the right guy. Then there he is. Making my life complete. Greg, I couldnt get through this time without you. And I cant imagine what my life would have been like if you hadnt have come into it. It seems weird though that as mine are leaving home, and I am saying to myself, I put my love life on hold to raise these girls and now they are leaving and I am all alone. Then POOF, there you are. And yes, its real and yes, your the one. I have no doubts about that. Maybe God knew it was time for me? That I would need you now that my job was done? I can only ponder why now, but one thing I am certain of, is I am so glad that it was now. When we work out the hurdles, it will be smooth sailing. But everyone has hurdles, and ours are minor an few. I am so lucky to have you baby! And I know the girls arent gone forever. They will always come back home. One thing I am most certain of is that they will always come back home. I have great kids, and now a great love. No reasons to be sad anymore. I am the luckiest women in the world!!!!
