I sit here wondering if things will ever work out for me.. Will my heart get what it desires .. so far i so the answer as no .. my heart aches with the need to love and be loved. My life is in shambles i have not much to offer any one though i ache to be loved .. for some one to show they care .. fighting to do this on my own faces me with endless nights of lonlyness .. The one guy i want to know how i feel shows the same fears that i have .. so it is hard to tell him just how i feel .. The woman i love is there for me when i need her even though distance is a issue with us .. she just wants to see me happy .. and i am not sure that will ever be .. She is on her way to hopefuly beeing blissfuly happy .. wish i was ..
