I been having a hard time being able to trust people since I been betrayed by others in the past. Its not easy for me to allow people into my life that care about me as a person with fear that the same thing would happen to me again. I been alone without friends for many yrs. Its lonely an not good. I been trying to change an be a better person, I'm good but I want to be better. I want to be a person that people can look up to an trust an I can trust them to. Thats the kind of person I want to be. Its hard for others to understand how I feel since I don't express feelings very much. I'm a very serious person been like that since I was a kid. I'm trying to lighten up an change all that which is not easy.
