Tonight as I lay here and cried I realized it was three nights in a row That tears have poured down my face I can tell I am about to blow. These memories are taking over my head It feels a little like deja vu Why did I let this happen? Why I am always blue? I miss my past so much I wish I could go back in time Be in a state of ignorance bliss Again, believe everything will be fine. My soul is empty and twisted My heart is shattered and broken I long to be cold and cruel again So I don't have to feel any emotion. I can remember The first time I cried How I wiped my eyes And buried the pain inside. I'm trying to move on But I keep living in the past It's so much more pleasant Even if the present is slipping by fast. I know I shouldn't do this Know that this is wrong But I don't know how else to cope I'm not emotionally strong. The present is too painful to bear The future scares me more than words can say So I'll continue to live in my bubble of the past And ignore the present as it slips away.
