i am completely hopeless...
i am stronger than this i know,
but for some reason i cannot let this go.
i cannot keep to this road or i will
completely self destruct.
i hate for the first time in my life.
and i don't like how it makes me feel.
i don't want to be here, stuck in my head.
in a hell created by someone else.
i want to my life back.
i want to feel again,
something other than the blackness inside.
to be the person i know i am,
not the fragile corpse i am now.
lost my mind,
lost my heart,
lost my love,
lost my soul.
