Master Kenaz's blog: "Lifes Paths"

2007, it has been an interesting year for me. I have allowed many into private areas of my heart, some, more than others and I even opened areas there that I have never allowed anyone. Please know that if I gave you a hug, a kiss, told you I love you, said I accepted you as you are, or even shared myself physically with you, I did so to share with you a part of myself. I have a great respect for each and everyone of you. I know I have failed some friends and I cannot change the past. I can only say I am sorry...and even then, that may never be enough, especially when it was those friends that helped me keep on keeping on through some rough areas. My pride, my ego, my loss of self, and neediness pushed some away. To them, I say thank you, for without you saying what you said, doing what you did... well... I do hope that perhaps we can rekindle our friendship in the future, I have not given up. From the year 2007, I shall carry memories of loss, love, laughter, stupidity, new experiences, joy, and grief. I have made friends, lost friends, renewed friendships, and missed opportunities of becoming the friend I should have been. I have made good choices and poor choices (and boy were they really suck ass poor choices!). But that is all the past. It has been real and it has been fun... can't say that it has been real fun. I have had some very good times and some very sad times but then, so has everyone else. A dear friend once said, Kenaz, you are a magician, you have the ability to grant wishes or cast curses. Well my friends I shall use my abilities then... I curse each and every one of you that 2008 brings your dreams into reality, I curse you with love, joy, and happiness. Allow the turning of the new year be that, if something good has happened to you in 2007, allow it to be a smile and memory, something bad, forgive and move on. Do not carry your heartaches into 2008, enter into it with a clean slate. Know that you are loved, loving, and beloved! Namaste, Blessed Be, Til next we meet.

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The most important person in anyones life should be themselves. Now I am not talking about being self centered or stingy, I mean everyone will live with only themselves for their time on this verdant sphere, all others we invite into our lives along our periolous path from the cradle to the grave, are only temperary companions on our own journey. It is up to us to decide how long that walk together will be and if the time together is/was worth the memories. Sometimes the heartache afterwards and the memories created offset the whole experience. Sometimes we greive when those that we invite into our lives must take a different path and we ourselves were not ready for it. I understand that there is anger, resentment, self pity, and many other things that are a part of this greiving process, but the one aspect we must practice is forgivness. Forgive ourselves and the other person. Only by practice can one fully understand the impact of true forgivness. I feel each and every human being has had both good and bad experiences. Those that are truely happy have been able to take each experience and learn from it, take the bad experiences and turn them into something positive, either hopes or dreams or even just the simple memory of what was good at that time and take the good experiences and cherish them only to quest for more experinces of the same calibur or better. I love with all my heart, am honest, and am considered a nice guy, yet I must remember that I am the master of my own destiny. Fate can bring 2 people together, but it is how they envision their own destinies and if they are similar. Do they wish to follow the same road, be a part of the same journey, or just leave things as memories when another crossroad presents itself? I hope that though a different path has been chosen by companions I have shared on my path during my journey, that we will still be there for each other in times of need and especially joy. As a dear friend would say, namaste, another dear friend would say, Blessed Be, what I shall say though is be well til next we meet, for our paths have crossed once and I shall cherish all moments spent with all.