Ladyhawkve2's blog: "life"

Today is another day in the game of life. It is one of those days that lingers on and on… No matter what I do it doesn’t seem right in my mind. I seem lost in thought all day long. Everything around me swirls and swirls… It doesn’t stop. I wish it would. Just for a second. I see it going and going. But where is it going? Nowhere and everywhere all at the same time. Make it stop spinning PLEASE!!!! I can’t take it no more…. If it goes on much longer, I don’t think I can hold on. My sanity is slipping away, little by little everyday. But I remain intact to keep on going. For those around me. I must remain strong. For the game of life is not over for me yet. I can’t lose just yet. It’s not my time.

This is one of those days that you never know how it's gonna turn out. one moment i'm sad and the next i'm happy. the rollercoaster is never ending. I just wish that the rollercoaster would end sometimes. btw.. my grandson is safe. he is with someone else today and not with me. so i don't worry about him. I am not suicidal i'm just feeling down. I go see my counselor tommorow and will talk about today with them so don't panic...to me Suicide is a chicken shit way out of dealing with your problems. if you can't handle what is wrong then you need to talk to someone and get help there is help out there ... you just have to open up about it. no matter how bad you think it is. you know what.. this has helped me... I hope it helps someone else.

Life is what you decide to make of it. It can be good, or it can be a disaster. There are things going on around you that noone can control. When you realize that, you realize that you control only what is infront of you. Just remember that no matter what happens to you during your life span. Only you can determine the final outcome.