Life
By: Mark David Leonard
My door is shut, Cuz I closed it. My window is cracked, cuz I broke it. My shoe is untied, cuz I pulled it. I forfeit my dream cuz I nulled it.
I am in control of my life and still chose not to. I wanted it so bad but still opted not to. Focused my eyes on things I should not do. Just on the things that I want to.
I made up my passions, the one that I liked is the one that I fashioned. I lived a lie that almost came true, doing some things that I could not even do. I liked it at first but then I grew sad, I lived for two things and then both became bad.
Nothing really mattered unless it was fun, and the fun still felt good, but still I’m not one. I still wish I did not let people down, now I just feel low, low as the ground. I feel there is no one that can pick me up, cuz of how deep that I have dug this rut.
I depend on my friends cuz I got no luck, make’n dumb excuses like I stepped on a duck, than fell face up landed right on my butt. It hurt real bad but I’ll still kinda help, I will do what I can but it won’t be real well.
I still speak the truth but I’m not all that mad. I spice it all up and make it sound real sad, but in real life it is not all that bad.
Some times I feel I should just go catch a cab, leave this place cuz I get oh so mad. Just so upset living this life I was gave, knowing all I am is all that I made.
For taking on all of this stuff that I do, juggling every thing as if I was two, be stuck up on a stage, paint on my face trying to entertain others and make myself feel great.
I can’t go on living one foot in both, living lies giving lines getting someone to hold me, up when I’m down and I still take them with me. I got to quite one to live the other completely.
